happy 23rd birthday

my birthday cake.. thanks babes!!

28 December 1985... 3.02 am.

that was the exact date and time i was born. tak ingt hari ape.. maybe khamis kot ~ hehe


nway tepat jam 12 waktu mesia, byk la plak msg masok. even i know not all of my good friends have my phone number yg jerman nye.. since my maxis dah mati kan. wuuuu xsuke! nway thanks to all... for those who remember my birthday.

and there are few people's yg den syg tetbe xwish plak. huh no heart feeling.. i don't mind at all. birthday is not a big deal for me. just celebrating the day i was born (gosh.. it is big deal!!) bile pk itula hari kita dilahirkan ke muka bumi Allah ni dah di amanahkan untuk menjadi khalifah.. huhu besa mknenye. ok la itu diffrent thoughts..

and time kol 5ptg smlm.. time tuh dah besday den la waktu mesia. muny and kyah buat suprise plak. bwak kek and cocktail.. plus presents! ahaha terharu la gak. even kek tuh den tak tahu nme ape.. and please mind the decore will ya? ok gak la.. something ade apple dlm dia hihi and dpt adiah - xmo sebut la. bia menjadi rahsia antre kterg hihi

and today 2 times my family call. hehe sing me the song ~ terharu kuase infiniti la.. (^^)v. first time ateh call and that time mummy xdek kat umah. bile mummy balik dorg call lagi sekali hehe. best2. i think, that was the best things ever on my 23rd birthday. (nanti balik rumah nk claim cake la.. )

i wish.. dengan umo yg dah semakin lanjut ni.. bertambah dari sehari ke sehari.. i can cope with my life and i'm hoping for a bright future. never knows what will happen.. right? wish i can be a good engineer and a successfull business woman =p ngeeeeeeee

may Allah bless me always and melimpahkan hidayah dan kasih sayang-NYA kepada insan kerdil ini.


ok ciao.. have a blessful final week of 2008!!

visum @ visa

visa habes bulan 2 ni hukhuk

is that a sign? going back for good? no idea..


lately.. tetbe rajin berblogging (kimah.. ni ko nye psal ler. kutuk ak kate malas wat entry baru) hoho

ok.. about visa atau dlm jerman nye visum ~ wakakaka (xtau pesal gelak). dlu time fes2 buat kne ade 32K dlm acc. mean stabil la.. ur family can support cmtu la. byk x? sbb nurul kate pesal byk sgt kne tunjuk dlm acc. klu tmpt lain mcm sket jek.. (+_+). gmba seblah mmg sebijik cm visa kterg huahuahua

den nk kate ape.. no idea. tu cre kire dia 600 Euro sebulan x 12 bulan (setaon nye visa la) so total dlm 7200 Euro ~ RM32K (rate pada mase itu).

then bile dpt visa tuh.. dia bg visa sementara dlu.. tok 3 bulan. after that kne pegi embassy jerman kat sni and renew for one year. for me.. taon depan dah abes la mase setaon 3 bulan tuh. so now kne renew balik laa.

tarikh dia xpired (smbil cek balik dlm passport) 9 feb. den time tuh kat mesia!! so cmno tuh?? gegege nnt isnin depan nk g embassy la tnye cmne. sbb my case is very difficult one.. malas nk cte pnjg lebar kat sni. nnt pas jmpe pok cik tuh, i'll story mory ok?

nway nk cte ni.. tuk renew visa baru. for 2nd time.. dia mcm lain sket. kne tunjuk jugak duit dlm acc, tapi hanyela 1800 Euro. iaitu tuk belanja for 3 months.. dlm RM9K jugak la. peloh2 jugak den nk mntk ngan family. slalu dorg bg sebulan2 jek.. ni nk kasi 3 bulan tros. adeiii... cmne ek.

my planning.. nk mntk RM4K jek. coz balance tuh den bole withdraw duit dri CC (aiceh.. ni la gunenye de CC, bole wat kua cash bling2). sbb klu TT - telegraphic transfer, then nnt den pun nak transfer balik duit tuh rugi la. sbb dlm kuantiti yg byk kan.. dgn rate skang yg tgi macam jin. emo2 ~ well maybe korg xpham perasaan nye cmne. hnye kterg jek yg tau. sob sob sob

'berperang ngan exchange rate'. ritu berjaya mengambil kesempatan ke atas kelemahan euro.. dpt rate 4.63 heaven giler ~ now rate 4.93 - mcm ampeh! so sbb tu slalu nye kterg bundar jadi 1 Euro ~ RM5 jek.. sng citer. eh btw, now 1 pound pun dah RM5. giler... xjdi nk g keje kat london cenggini. bek stay europe saje.. cet!

tdi baru lepas calling ngan family.. bncg pasal visa. skali kene marah sedas ~ amik! sbb dorg kate nape xbg tau awal2. huk2.. sbnanye den yg dah planning senyap2. nk pnjm kejap duit persiapan wedding my sister (kes nk lari dri abg sndri) then gune my own money sket. cmtu ler.. huhu skali rupenye dorg duk risau mende lain plak.. hih rimas ~ owh mende visa ni bole settle kejap je insya allah. meaning i only have to show that money dlm acc, then bole jek withdraw balik lepas tu huhu. ni bukan kes tipu ok, tpi mmg sumerg wat cmtuh.

dlu time dorg sume (budak2 double degree lain) renew visa pun, sume kelam kabut cmni gak.. pakat2 withdraw duit dri CC. so ni kre den copy cat idea dorg la. kwang2.. yela i think its ridiculous la nk suh family kterg bg trus 9K. *please note that we all sumenye self-sponsored and family kterg bukannye tahap2 jutawan lagi* ke arah tu ade la kot.. kwang2. dorg la, not me =p

me.. and my new jacket (^^)v

questions about this jacket..

1. do you think this jacket is lovely/nice/smart/lawa and so on?

2. if your answer is yes.. please move to the next question. if your answer is no.. please explain.

3. since you said this jacket is ok.. do you know what am i going to say? hehe THANKS!!!


few facts about this jacket..

1. i've been admiring this jacket.. since 3,4 months ago (cudn't remember)

2. it was like.. love at first sight =p

3. at that time the price was 59,90 Euro ~ RM 300. OMG!! toooo expensive for me.. well we are not sponsored by JPA/MARA what so ever. so actually our monthly pocket money between 500-600 Euro compared to 1000 Euro for them. huhu so i think the jacket most likely like RM60 for them.. no problem.

4. then the price reduced --> 49,90 Euro. arghhh.. 10 Euro only? cet.. ok fine. but i'm still waiting for a big sale.

5. 18 December.. went to the shop again. OMG!! it was 29,90 Euro (RM150). ahaha so without hesitate.. i bought the jacket (^^)v. soooo damn happy. but then as a result.. i'm BROKE. like i told u before huhu

all of them.. marni, muny and kyah knows... how much i'm crazy about this jacket. everytime we went to that shop, i'll never ever leave the shop until i found this jacket first. agagagagagaga (they always changed the place!! huh every single time i went there.. pfenat cari)


above all.. this is the cheapest jacket yet the most expensive (normal price) jacket i ever have. kwang2.

so u see... ITS WORTH THE WAIT ~ or should i say jangan berhenti berharap?

one missed call

hari ni.. went shopping.

last minit shopping sbb christmas market abes hari ni.. so me, muny and kyah decide to do some girls shopping ~ ngee.. mmg kterg girls slalu shopping together. tapi it wasn't the same, without marni. gosh.. missing her (ghey habis). hope she's doing great.. akak dia kawin on 28 dec.. mg ni ler. hoho

owh yea.. kterg poyo shopping tadi just for our groceries jek. then beli stok mknn byk2.. cadang nye mahu berhibernasi dlm blik. guess what?.. hurm shop will be closed from 24 (noon) smpi la 28. so xmau mati kelaparan, kterg pegi la beli sume keperluan hidup. ahahah gaye shopping tuh mcm la supermarket kat sni tutop sebulan!!!

well that's the fact. weken dia demn boring ok. have i told u? wuuhuu.. terbalik 100% dari mesia. rasenye sbb tu org sni pun xsuke cuti kot.. sbb kehidupan sume tersekat. last year thank god kterg xdek kat jerman time cuti christmas (kterg kat paris). tapi taun ni kne go through gak ~ cetttt. face it.. duk lam blik je la jwbnye

ok tu mukadimah nye.. sblm smpi ke crite sbna. so time2 shopping tuh. tetbe we all tersplit. sorg g sne.. sorg g sni.. bese la. den plak, pgi beli shawl for my mum. hurm sbb mcm xbyk plak brg beli kat dia huhu ampun mummy (pdhal i bought her handbag already.. tapi sume girls dpt so xspecial). and beli alas meja tuk umah.. gelabah jek bli from here. pdhal made in china kot ~ antam ler. abes kat RM100 gak la..

and suddenly mcm blank. at the end.. even mcm2 den beli. seems not enough. i dont think i have a present for all my gangs. geng maahad, geng pasum, geng ukm.. xmasuk lagi org personal. tah la.. all i could think right now was for my family jerk. sorry babeS.. but chocolate tuh mmg den akn beli byk2 la. ke all this time i buy things only for myself? wahahahaha.. kantoi ~

then right know.. i'm totally BROKE!! duit ade 20 euro jek dlm bank. series.. dead me! owh did i told u.. i just got my credit card (CC). wahahaha (muke evil) tapi not received the pin number yet.. kan asing2, bese la. kad smpi dlu, number pin menyusul kemudian. tapi tak smpi2. kat semg lebih gak ni.. lempang kang ~ so ade kad kredit xbole pegi shopping plak. klu beli online je bole.. huh.

tapi mcm bangge jugak.. eh bukan bangge la. bersyukur sgt coz i have my own CC. susah ler idup kat oversea xdek mende nih. this CC was under Barclay.. mmg student jerman sume wat yg ni la. me.. after 1 year baru nak buat. ampeh sungguh! limit dia 1000 euro ~ RM5K. standard la kan? hehe so now i can buy my flight ticket online! wahahahaha tu jeh the main reason. bole tak?

ok xsmpi lagi kat crite sbna.. well time shopping2 tuh, i got one missed call. ingt depa yg call.. then bile tgk num. mcm num fixed line ~ huh.. sape plak neh. i just called back.. and guess what? xpe, korg teka2 pun den bukan bole dgr. so den cte je la.. the call was from one company yg den pnah isi borang tuk mntk keje zaman tok kaduk dulu!!! huh even me cudn't remember when exactly i fill up the form.

pastu dekat 5 minit jgak la borak2.. english + jerman. and dia nak offer keje start januari!! oh my god ~ that time i'm going home ok?? mule la xtenang.. klu de org tgk den borak time tuh mesti gelak guling2. over expression smpi mcm bole plak duduk2 mencangkung kat tepi kedai.. huhu dgn rmi org lalu lalang di sepanjang shopping street tuh. haih sure xleh nk byg kan? its alright..

argh.. mcm tensen giler. the opportunity depan mate... but then ade plak big stone kat depan hoho. rase nk hantuk2 pale kat batu tu (smbil alas ngan bantal). u don't know how hard it was to search for a part time job kat sni!!!! aiii mmg menangis la.. mcm tunggu bulan jatuh ke riba. erk that sounds impossible.. ok la mcm tgu kucing bertanduk.. pun mcm impossible. tah la.. tapi mmg susah la! muslim dgn pki tudung plak.. mmg susah like hell. kalau boy mmg sng jerk.

so tula.. at the end she told me she will call me back in february. lepas balik dri mesia.. gegegege wish it true. sob sob sob.. jgn xtepon sudah. i've wait for so long.. yela dri bulan 10 cari keje.. smpi la skang. i'm tired pegi tnye kedai ke kedai.. then siap pegi cari kat agent lagi. results - 0! its not that my family tak bole nk support lagi. tapi pk2 sndri la.. klu bole i want to earn my own money. lagipun dah habes blaja kan.. dgn adik2 lain sume terlebih pndi masuk kolej swasta. haih.. xmo ler susahkan family den. (erk ade sesape nk tolong sponsor ke? hihi)

then my brother keep on persuading me.. to stay here. dia kate as long as he got projects.. no worry. yela.. den mmg xrisau. tapi diam2 dia suke jek calculate how much i owed him!!! haih.. tak tau dia series ke tak nak suh byr balik. sengaL la.. tapi at least i paid half of my expenses in here. lallalalala so hopefully at the end xdek la smpi 30K. hukhuk

so itula.. kesahnye. i think i will take that as a positive sign. ok la.. insya allah i'll have a job tuk support myself next year - after coming back from mesia.. hopefully!! and also i got my CC. hehe my saviour ~ now i'm still waiting for my next good news.. PRACTICAL. bile la nk dpt ni. hari tuh dah anta almost 30+ applications. mcm hmpir 20+ kne reject. giler kan? bese la.. hidup kat tmpt org. mmg down xhabes!! ahaha but i get used to it (giler tough.. kononnye)

i think kne anta lagi 20 kot.. cukop kan 50 ngeh2. hari tuh dpt satu booklet nih.. penuh nme company engineering. so tula anta jek kat sume ~ heaven kejap. out of 30+ xkn xdpt satu kan? very WRONG ok.. my junior sent 80+ pun xdpt2 lagi. giler! u see in germany, sume nye mcm double triple harder. huhu ok tak nk merungut.. just face it. nnt mungkin at the end bile balik mesia --> jdi increadible hulk.. ahahah very tough person. aminnnn tapi xmau la muke jadi ijau!

blog den macam....

huh... siot muny kate blog den dah xmacam dulu ~


sigh... angpa ingt sng nak jadi pelawak? ha.. nk kasi blog ni ceria ~ best ~ menarik ~ xbosan ~ dan yg sama waktu dgnnya. hukhukhuk kalu masuk permaisuri lawak (sbb pompuan kan.. xkn raja lawak plak) mesti den org fes kua (+_+)

act i do know myself.. my blog getting suram.. sesuram hidup den skang nih gegegege. now cam nk demam. asek kua bejalan tanpa henti. agrrhhhh.. patut thesis xsiap2 --> tetbe tertuka topik

yela now mcm pfening2.. rase nk tido tapi byk bende lagi nk wat. masok dlm wish list la.. eh slap. list things to do ~ susah byk2 list nih. list brg dapo lagi.. list brg nk bwk balik mesia lagi.. list brg nk shopping UNTUK bwk balik mesia lagi.. list brg org krem lagi.. abes penuh dinding blik ngan list2 nih. (ok tipu jerk.. xdek pun wujud notes tuh kat dinding blik den ni.. hanye ade kalender besar gedabak.. ngan peta europe jek)

berbalik kepada blog den ni.. ade cte best nk kongsi. hari tuh me and kimot duk r obses sebentar ngan satu blog ni. sbb org komen blog dia smpi beratus2!! erk sila jgn compare ngan blog CHE DET ok.. blog dia mmg beribu2 org komen. dah tuh berbilion plak org dah visit blog tuh wuuu

tpi mmg blog dia klaka abes r. 'dia' kat sni bukan che det mahupun kimot k.. jgn slah pham cte plak. agagaga tapi den syorkan jugak la korg bce blog kimot ni.. love to read hers. so org yg kterg duk obses bce tuh nme blog dia.. ANAK MAT NOR ~ den dh link kat seblah. u have to read it.. lawak giler nk mati.. (alhamdulillah xmati lagi)

pastu lately me and kimot duk r patah hati.. sbb blog kterg xsebest cam dia hukhuk.. dgn itu kterg rase dh nk delete blog kterg (giler sesuki buat cte) abes peminat kimot nangis2 huahuahua. no.. that's not the end. tetbe den menjadi dr fadzilah kamsah plak --> versi blog. sbb as for me.. if org suke blog dia then dpt komen tahap ratus2/riban.. what to do. dia mmg ader rmi follower seh!

the main objective for me having this blog.. only for my self satisfaction. dlu blog ni private ok.. tapi atas permintaan rmi terpakse wat public huk2. i just write what ever i want.. a little bit about my life, sbb klu nk cte sume mmg den terpakse tuka profesion jadi penulis blog tegar plak. xpasal2 xhabes study huhu. act dgn blog ni.. i hope that my friends could, at least, catch up with my life. nnt den balik mesia tak dek la berbuih mulut nak cte sume mende.. hih xkuase ~

so itu la.. saje je merapu kejap. sbb mcm dah lame tak post entry baru.. owh den xjwab lagi 2 tag. kak erin nye ngan aisyah senget. tgu yerk.. been busy. wuuuhu

p/s: me now tgh menghabiskan mase berharge kat jerman (yg sepatotnye dihabiskan for thesis) dgn menengok series FRIENDS yg sgt best tahap dewa tuh. kalah sume blog dlm dunia nih ahahaha. al-kesahnye; my friend got the whole 10 seasons!! giler bab betul.. so now tgh proses khatam la.. demm! giler xsedar dri.

ross, phoebe, rachel, joey, monica and chandler

p/p/s: i wish i could throw this laptop masuk dalam beg laptop.. TAPI nnt xleh wat thesis plak. aiyayayayaya help2!!!! i need oxygen ~

kesah nenek part 2

follow up from cerita hari tu..


erm upenye dorg semua balik naik kereta.. 2 bijik (yela kterg kan bertujuh sume + pak cik yg tgh blaja kat semenyih - adik bongsu mummy). dorg bertolak dlm kol 12 lebih, ingt kan kol 9 (yela cmpor tolak kne pick up sume adik badik yg bersepah2 kat KL.. dgn atehnya dah pegi kerja, abe pun kat ofis and boya dekat kolej). then dorg smpi kelantan around 7 lebih.. wah super laju depa ni drive. mesti line clear ~ huhu

and that time of coz la nenek dah selamat dikebumikan. tak pe la.. xkn nk tgu sume smpi kot. melambat2kan urusan kubur ni mmg xelok. and nenek ni upenye org kubang batang (cet.. giler xtau - eh tau2, cume STM short term memory) and jenazahnye dikebumi dekat sana.

i cudn't remember kat ner kubang batang ni (aish cm confuse plak... ke kat kubang kerian eh. byk plak kubang2 kat kelate nih). maybe somewhere dekat kota bahru kot. kat situ upenye jenazah moyang2 kiterg sume disemadikan.. no wonder nenek nk kat situ juga. hurm tpi sbnanye agak jauh dari kg kterg - which is kuala krai. dkat sejam lebih jugak la drive.

nway time call tuh, byk kali depa plak xangkat ~ terpk gak tgh tahlil ke huhu. then finally angah angkat - phone mummy siap xringing pon huhu. borak2 kejap - tau la den ade mak cik kterg dri perak pun still odw. huhu pastu time ckp ngan mummy giler mcm nk nangis..

me: sedih la ma
(sore dah ala2 sebak nk kua air mate - xtau la sbb sedih about nenek or sdih sbb borak ngan mummy. sbb den ni kan dua bende plg mudah nk menangis: bile dgr suare mummy kat phone + bile terasa sgt bengang/marah - ciwek ke???)

ma cayang: yela, nak buat mcm mana. bia la dia pergi. tak terseksa sgt

and pas cte2 baru la tau.. upenye nenek died coz pendarahan dalaman. mmg bleeding abes ma kate. huhu maybe sbb ketumbuhan dlm diri dia kot - yg kterg suspek cancer tuh. act nenek mmg ade appointment ngan doc 24 ribulan tuk check dia nye ketumbuhan. but then it's too late. argh.. kdg2 bengang jugak ngan spital gov neh. lembab.. huhu tpi xleh nk slahkan dorg. that's the fact - nak cpat g swasta. tpi den pun tak tahu pesal nenek tak masok private - knowing the fact that.. she can afford it.

at the end.. jump to conclusion. we didn't regret at all.. because we've done our best to look after her. yela anak sume dah besa. tgl nenek ngan atok jek kat rumah tuh - ditemani kucing2, ayam2 and kambing. tpi mmg sumerang really concern bout them.. i'm really proud of that. nowadays kan byk kes2 parents terbiar.. bile sakit tak dek org jage. but then tgk adik beradik mummy... really solute them.

*hopefully nnt kterg 7 beradik pun bole take care of our mother. insya allah

nenek ku pergi jua ='(

tadi baru lepas text angah..
sound dia suh pegi register balik num maxis den yg dah mati tuh.


then suddenly dia call.. suare sebak mcm nangis.
"nenek dah arwah yuyu... pagi tadi" - 9 pagi mesia ~ 2 pagi jerman

terdiam.. tergamam..

angah ckp lagi "nnt angah tnye maxis pasal num tuh.."
me - OK

30 saat berlalu...
flashed back all the memories... then i just cried for the past one hour =(

last time i saw her.. one year ago
last time i heard her voice.. one year ago
last time i kissed her.. one year ago
last time i hugged her.. one year ago

how come so much changed in one year...??!
it was just one year!!!! --> emosi menguasai diri


i was frustrated.. cudn't talk to her for the last time. i wish i call her earlier.. just after i knew she had a stroke. but i just leave it to my mother.. i'm sux - the worst granddaughter ever!!!

to face one death.. when u r far away.. i dunno u can imagine about it or not ~

when i came here there's only one thing that i wish for - nothing bad happen to my family/closest family. that's all...

but today..
'kun fayakun...' sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Berkuasa terhadap segalanya.

this is faith.. i have to deal with it. there's nothing i can do..

i wish i can fly.. so that i can go home right now
i wish i was there.. just to see her face for the last time
i wish she still alive.. just for one month to see me again

i wish the distance between malaysia and germany is not 10,000km!


nenek is not very well recently.. i heard nenek had a cancer. then suddenly had a 2nd stroke after 10 years. mom went back to Kelantan twice.. angah said. and all of them also went back once. me - none!

last thing i know - nenek was discharge from hospital few days ago... and this morning she died. i have no idea the main cause.. is it the cancer? people died of stroke is not a common thing (as far as i know)... huhuhu

i'm too sad to think about it ~ now its nearly 4 am. going to sleep..


first thing in the morning.. call my mom. i hope they all could make it - going back to Kelantan before the ceremony.



al-fatihah buat allahyarhamah Mariam --> my lovely grandmother =(

coming soon..

erm nnt sok luse..

entry tertunggak pasal g London akan memasuki pasaran


memula mcm dh malas nk menyiapkan entry tuh.. tpi i have to write it in detail.
yela nnt 4,5 taun lagi kte maybe xleh ingt dah ape yg berlaku sedetail2 nye kan..

so tu la abadikan dlm blog wuuuu
mcm g paris tuh.. mmg detail abes den cte.. so bile bce balik rindu sgt tringt saat2 tuh (jiwang lebih .. hih)

n rase regret nye xwat entry pasal trip2 before ni.. aiii rugi2
esp pasal g Prague.. mcm xdek langsung lam ingtn ~ bhye betul
(kes sbb xmasok mne2 tmpt menarik kat situ la neh)

n kterg wat conclusion.. in order to make the trip very meaningful kenala masuk tmpt2 yg menarik tuh. conthnye mcm kat paris tu kterg g naik eiffel tower.. pastu masuk musee d'louvre.

then time pegi jalan2 kat area bwh jerman ni, kterg masuk Neuschwanstein Castle.. best giler ~
then kat london lagi la byk tmpt kterg masuk.. xyah cte la. nnt bce entry - tu pon klu korg larat.. sbb mmg panjang berjela seh (+_+)


and bhse yg den gune plak.. time tuh still pengaruh gune pengganti diri - penulis. so layan je la ~ gegegege

alkesah.. kLu kLu

just realize..


i spent 30-45 minits every day to play with my pet.. dalam pet society
ngeeee quite a long time


pet society ni game dalam facebook. sgt seronok la main.. pada mulenye. lame2 tuh mcm dah nk muntah ijau asek main jerk! wuuuuuu

ni la pet den.. nme nye kLu kLu. comey kan? hehe

ala.. bukan ape. men game ni saje buang mase. setiap org pun perlukan hiburan kan.. so ni la hiburan den tiap2 hari. penat r main dia. kdg2 malaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas sgt. tapi disebabkan ade manusia2 kat bwh nih.. terpakse ku gagahi jua ~


berdasarkan gmbo di atas ni.. den skang num 2. point kurang 9 ribu dari cik kimot. dan lebih 10 ribu dri muny. tmbh lagi dengan ade dua pencabar baru.. nan ngan fae - asek nk mengejar den jek! (perasan disitu)

so disebabkan 4 org di atas ni la i cannot give up!! ceeewah gaye nye mcm nk g perang jek. tpi tula.. dorg r nye pasal. mmg TERPAKSE main ok.. kang kne potong plak huhu. yg den plik tuh.. depa ni xboring2 ka main?? tolong la benti so that i can stop too huhuhu

ha ni kasi cnth blik dalam umah kLu kLu.. dia ade 6 bilik sume. penat ok nak susun.. kalah interior designer!! ni la blik plg den suke dlm byk2 hehe.. nway give a try. mmg sonok la main. dia every week akan ade mende baru. pakaian ke.. food ke.. perabot ke.. mcm2 la. ahaha tu pasal bole layan lagi kot ~

ops kantoi plan duit den yg sket tuh.. cet baru lepas shopping ok

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7 facts about me

1. i'm a loyal person.. (xsuke sbnanye.. dem) ~ huhu dia ade pro's and con's la. but its hurting la being a loyal one. agagagaggaaga (giler plik.. dush2)
2. i'm not a morning person ~ ahahaha sbb tido pon dah 3,4 pagi so untuk mencukupkan waktu tido dlm 6,7 jam tuh mustahil la bole bgn pepagi kan. aga! naseb time subuh bole jage tpi pas tuh pengsan balik la.. xpun tgu subuh ke. lagi la lmbt den bgn! maunye tengah hari (+_+). xpe nnt di alam pekerjaan have to wake up early. now alam belaja lain cte la hihi
   
3. saye sbnanye anak yatim.. sob sob. i lost my father when i was 16. he died of leukemia. i still remember the term - they call it CML : chronic myeloid leukemia. it has been 7 years already since he passed away. i do miss him.. every single moment. and somehow i know he was proud of me. i'll prove something, dad =p
4. saye merupakan penyimpan rahsia terbesar mohor2 diraje... gosh, tah pebenda ~. well i'm secretive. in certain things la.. bcoz for me tak semua bende kite bole share dalam dunia nih. so to my frens.. sorry la for being such a person. tpi sbnanye byk gak rahsia dah terckp kat org tuh, kat org neh. aiiih.. xsuke!
5. owh ha... i'm collecting GLOBs.. hehe since duk over the sea nih duk la kumpul mende alah tuh. now dah de 7 ketul tapi ade satu dah pecah sbb terjatuh (demmm!) then ade satu tuh kaler air dia jadi MERAH! bengap betul.. rase nk pulang balik je.. senget leer. so yg elok skang ni from DUbai, pAris, London ngan prague. terpakse beli bru yg aMsterdam nye and nk cri baru from geRmany. aiiii loser2
6. i love to travel.. a lot!! tu yg xmau balik mesia lagi tuh. xpuas berjalan ~ ngeee (mati le den klu family den bce neh)
7. last thing u should know about me.. i'm a very nice person.. ahaha do treasure me. u'll find out someday

7 unspectacular quirks

1. pemboros nom 1.. plus xreti manage duit. aiii mmg rusak la.. dlu time mude remaja bole abeskan 1k dlm sekelip mate jek. tak tahu le wat ape. now time tua remaja (sbb dah 23 kan), pun mcm fail gak bab manage duit. cmne eh.. tolong!!! no wonder xdpt credit card.. mau utang keliling pinggang ~
2. wasting lots of time doing nothing.. nnt bile esok pagi bgn tido mule la nk menyumpah seranah diri sndri.. what am i doing eh??? aiyayayayaa
3. asek mengadap computer almost 24/7... tu yg mate ni pun mcm perlu penjagaan rapi jerk. now mcm dah xclear sgt.. huhu xsuke la klu kne pki lenses/contacts.. bluuuek
4. suke tangguh keje.. biasela perangai manusia kan. esok nk jmpe lect, mule la mlm ni tak tdo malam.. hape2 jerk.
5. kdg2 suke gak nk bertegang urat ngan org.. yela klu kite rase mcm pendpt kte betul, org tu plak asek duk bangkang - mule la panas... tpi mslhnye sumerang nk mng ~ aiiiiish
   
6. someone told me - there a lots of things yg i always pk dalam2 giler. hurm.. something that i shouldn't think that much. i guess she was right... but i dunno what she mean by that. she never explain to me. sigh ~
7. last thing.. sometimes i can be a very mean person.. gegegeeg try me!
   

hari comot ZARA

semalam.. pagi. pegi anta marni kat train stesen.. dia naik ICE pegi frankfurt--> sejenis train maha laju kat jerman (250km/h.. giler!). sbb MAS nye flight sume kat sana.

then ade la kesah haru nye. bole plak train dri kolej kterg delayed!! huhu.. peloh2 sumerang. cuak xsmpt catch train ICE tuh. skali lagi 6 minit before 7.15 smpi la itu train.. ABELLIO nme dia. terkedek2.. lempang kang.

smpi kat train stesen tuh sume berlari.. marni dah lari dlu awal2 tuk tahan pintu train ICE.. wakakakak lawak giler time tuh. kterg plak yg terhegeh2 bwk beg2 dia. naseb la smpt!! mmg time tuh marni la org last.. siut btul.

kterg mmg anti ngan ICE neh.. gelabah giler. xsaba2 nk tutop pintu train tuh. eeee xsmpt nk salam2 marni. lambai2 dri lua jek.. cet! baru nk kasi coklat kat dia. xpasal2 den yg makan. ngee

ok tu kesah paginye.. then cm bese pastu kterg g breakfast kat KAMPS.. (kedai roti kat sini..sedap gak). ni la trend kterg.. klu anta org yg flight dia kat frankfurt, mesti pas tu pegi breakfast. pei tze ritu pun sme gak.. yela dorg naik train bapak nye awal. 7.15 huhu mmg sume kabut tak smpt breakfast laa

then klu sape yg flight kat dusseldorf.. kterg akan pegi lepak kat starbucks. xpasal2 jdi bahan lawak lak.. dorg kate spe naik kat dusseldorf nih abes duit byk la time anta, sbb lepak kat starbucks ngeh2 --> kes i la nih nnt.

ok meh cte pasal ZARA plak..

smlm pas lunch tuh.. pegi la jalan2 kat city center. saje jek boring2.. then tetbe lalu kat tepi zara. den pon ajak le depa masuk. huahuahua selama setaun lebih kat sni, xpnah masok kedai tuh. tah la.. i'm not really into it. for me zara ni cm brand tok org tua ~ ekekekeke XSUKE pong.

then yg best tuh.. murah2 plak baju dia (skang kan sale christmas ~ lallala). mule la den confuse... and tertarik la ngan satu baju neh - sesuai wat pegi kerja. owh yea now neh.. bile g shopping asek pk nk beli baju keje jek. gile perasan hihihi

so at the end beli la baju tuh.. best2.. lovee it. xpasal2 de brand zara (giler org tua ~) hih! and ckp la kat dorg - kyah and muny..

'la, hrge baju kat sini lebih kurang ngan esprit jek. giler tak tau.'

skali muny balas..

'eh tak la.. slalu kterg g mahal2 giler jek. hari ni je zara ni comot. tetbe byk plak murah2'

ahahaha ok la tuh.. naseb time den pegi zara tgh comot eh.. lallalalalala. then ade suka satu blazer dia. giler 20Euro jek. smart abes r.. tpi mcm xmo la beli lagi. adei.. dh r kterg plan nk g Rotterdam time chrismas neh. xtau lagi cne huhu.. kne save duet la. gegegege

life...? let it be

firstly...

takziah to eha.. sorry to hear about ur mother. i might don't understand ur feeling. losing a mother is different (i think) compared to what i've experienced.

somehow i know u r ready to face this.. got to be tough, girl. but even we think we are ready.. when it happened we never know ourself ~ right? same goes to me. huhu

from that 'moment', everything is going to change. it happened to me.. don't know about you. suddenly tringt kat english essay time form 5 dulu.

title: my world..
the words i wrote came truly from my heart.. how my father's death change my world. and my fav cekgu @ maahad - teacher ramrah wrote there.. very nice essay. maybe she knew me very well through my writing (she still remember me though!)

eha..
no matter what.. remember u r not alone in this world ~
u got my back - anytime (",)

i'll pray for you.. hoping for the best..


p/s: eh nanti ak balik.. xlame lagi. sabo2.. nnt lepak2ing ok



secondly..

tomorrow.. marni going back to malaysia. only for a short time actually. 37 hari.. ehehe. this is her first time.. since we came to germany - about 1 year 4 months ago.

its weird.. when she's not around. not get used to it ~ it sounds gay eh? but that's the truth. we are very close.. like siblings. not only me and her.. with others too.. esp 5 of us ~

just now came back from our final gathering (me, marni, muny, kyah and razmi).. bila bersame tadi, terasa mcm pergi travel plak. really miss those moments. huhu feel like crying right now.. ='( sob sob sob

have u ever feel the same way i do..? when u really miss something - feel like crying.



thirdly..

have u ever been in this situation ::

u friend hate someone.. because between them there are some kind of untold 'history'. then as a friend.. u have to do so --> hate someone who got absolutely nothing to do with you!!! arghhhh.. and whenever u talk about that person it was like a BIG SIN.. like i'm the guilty one. aiyayaya life is hard!

well that's really ... hurm what to call it ... tah la ~

but ... some of the time you do hate that person ~ ahaha.. so which side are u act? ngeeee


love ur friend.. hate their enemies.. so called best friend huh?
yop.. suits me right

aiiii... selfish nye manusia

selfish - define this word.


hurm manusia yg hanye pk pasal diri dia jek. tanpa memikirkan org lain di sekeliling ~



kat floor neh rasenye ade sorg mamat selfish yg mmg patut kne humban jejauh.. xyah duk kat kolej neh!!! aiii hape2 tah

semenjak dua ni perasan jugak.. pintu bilik air kterg slalu tertutop. *kterg kat hostel ni bilik single and kne kongsi bilik air + dapur*. tah manusia mne tah yg suke tutop. pastu rajin plak TUTOP LAMPU! giler ke ape. ingt duk kat umah ke? xpham betul.. sebok plak dia tolong nk jimat tuk pihak kolej neh...

so den pun mmg xleh blah la ngan org cmni.. dah la kunci dapur and bilik air tuh mmg xsemua org ader. tiap kali nk g bilik air terpakse plak pegi jauh2 belah wing lain. hih tampa kang ~ mmg menyusahkan betul. floor lain xdek plak tutop2 pintu tuh. ni mesti budak baru masuk sbb before this kterg kat floor 4 ni aman damai jerk..

so bile dah bengang memuncak tadi.. rajin plak pegi tulis notes tmpl kat depan pintu bilik air tuh. i wrote..

DO NOT close this DOOR
p/s: not everyone has the KEY

pastu tadi nk g mndi.. tetbe dia balas plak! tampal satu ketas baru atas ketas tadi. siot nye org ~ tak ingt ape ayat dia. nnt la pegi amik gmba.. tapi mmg selfish giler. tah hape mslh tah.. tau plak dia terase. sebok2 plak nk tutop pintu tuh..

ni yg tetbe trase nk pndh masuk rumah neh ~ aiii tpi pk2 balik mmg better lagi duk kolej. hurm.. terpakse la bertahan ngan org2 prangai giler cmni. sob sob

me.. my flight.. and mak mandir

baru balik dari pasar chrismas ~ lol lawak bunyi nye

dalam jerman nme dia 'weinachtmarkt' - chrismas market.. ok la tuh.


damn tired sbnanye.. dh la mg ni busy melayan kunjungan lecturer dari UKM. owh beliau sgt bertuah.. mendpat layanan extra special dari kterg ngeee.. ade ke dia kate nnt kterg balik mesia, dia plak nk jdi tourist guide kterg ~ agagagaga lawak betul.

bwk dia jalan2 kat Essen ni.. then pegi pulak Dusseldorf. aiii mesti xtau kan tmpt2 neh? wat2 tau je r. xpun google maps ke.. then mlm last dia kat sini smpt plak masak tuk dia. saje je nk tunjuk skil - nnt bole la dia heboh satu UKM tuh pasal kterg ehehehe (gile xbrape nk ikhlas) huahuahua.

xdek la.. mmg saje je nk ajak mkn. mesti dia susah nk cri mkn kat sini... dh r kurus keding jek. ade ke berat dia 49 kg!! bole bygkan ke lelaki berat cmni.. adeiii mcm nk tolong suh amik berat neh sket.. huhu. erm dia dtg sorg jek.. 27 taun.. single ahaha. tolong pomote ~

pape pun kterg hanye menunaikan hajat dia.. tuk jenjalan. sian gak, dh r sensorg jek. then keje dia kat sini pun kejap je dah settle.. bapak la boring nye duk hotel tuh. tapi mmg solute la ngan kterg (gile puji dri sndri) ~ even though bebanan thesis mmg mencengkam jiwa.. still spent some time with him. ahahaha good attitude la girls!

tibe2 terpk.. kterg bole wat bisnes tourist guide la. jln2 sekitar neh ~ hehe sila la dtg jerman. bole kterg entertain dgn bayaran yg berpatutan. pomote lagi ~ tpi before2 this.. org yg kterg bwk g jenjalan sume blanje kterg makan. best2.. i think that's enough la. but somehow idea nk buka tourist guide neh bole diusulkan tuk taun 2009! (^^)v

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talking about my flight.. GOOD NEWS. got my ticket already.. alhamdulillah. nmpknye jodoh den still dgn EMIRATES. ritu mcm plan nk fly naik egypt then transit few days kat sne kan.. hurm cancel la plak. postpone taun depan la pegi egypt tuh. kalau de rezeki.. smpi juga ke sne nnt. saba ye niah ~ =p

ritu.. tetbe nk cek website emirates. then suddenly tiket dia murah plak.. giler la. return 623.98 Euro! murah sgt le tuh labu.. so ape lagi. cepat2 la pegi beli itu tiket... tapi ade la cte mak mandir nye. later i'll tell u. ni kte cte pasal flight dlu.

ni la my flight schedule.. agagagaga


so going back to Malaysia 11 jan - 21 feb 2009 ~ (^_^) - made up my mind already. going back to germany. only to prove i've made the right decision... insya allah. GOD please help me!!

then the best part is.. since i'm a SKYWARDS member - meaning frequent flyer with Emirates (ni dah 4th time) so bole plak pilih seat!! yeay.. sronok2.. so ape lagi mesti la pilih seat yg kat tepi tingkap + bukan dekat wing ~ ahahaaha tgk gmba kat bwh neh.. ni cnth la.. kedudukan lam flight. my seat line 27.. masyuk2.


pastu tadi xdek keje.. usha2 website emirates. bole plak manage my booking.. hurm plus bole la nk upgrade seat dri economy ke business... agaaggaga syco jerk. with my skyward point ade 22000, mcm cukop la point tuh nk upgrade. this one available for me.. so tetbe mcm terase la nk try duk business class. ahahaha giler berangan jadi kaya kejap.


tapi.. pk2 balik.. mcm xbole la plak. coz my original plan is to redeem rantai 4 my sister nye wedding gift. Swarovski tuh.. egegegege mmg sesuai wat adiah tuk dia (even tak tahu la dia suke pki rantai ke tak). tuk redeem rantai ni jerk abes 22000 point den tuh. cet ~ so cmno tuh? of coz la rantai ni lagi penting dri business class tuh (i mmg adik yg plg best dlm dunia =p) so maybe i'll try next time la to upgrade class tuh.

best tak rantai ni.. ehehehe

nmpk free je wedding gift ni kan? tapi.. sbnanye kne byr gak tuk dia shipping ke sni.. plus tax bagai. hih lempang kang ~ abes gak duit den. but i really hope she like it. memula mcm nk kasi pakej honeymoon g memne (giler hebat).. tpi memandangkan den ni tahap student laie. xdapek la nk nolong.. (demm! pesal asek ckp loghat negeri lain neh.. i'm kelantanese ok - uh uh)

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kesah mak mandir plak ~

rabu - 10.30 am

pegi emirates nye kaunter kat airport tuk tnye pasal tiket. then mmg wujud la hrge tiket murah tuh. just to reconfirm.. mne tau kne beli online je ke - mati den! trus la book skali time tuh.. my date was 11jan - 22feb. then flight on 22 feb tuh plak 12.30 mlm.

call family to transfer duit.. took 1 day so nnt dtg bayar hari jumaat la.

jumaat - 1.40pm

pegi kat kaunter.. then nk byr gune kad bank (pagi tdi dah call customer service.. dia kate bole aje dong) so.. malas la nk g wat kua duit bebyk dri bank. bhye seh! ngan sedikit bangge.. swept la itu kad. sekali.. GAGAL. siot giler!! aiii tensen den..

yg jge kaunter tuh nme dia Mary. mmg dri ari rabu tuh deal ngan dia.. so dgn suke ati nye dia kte, xpe dtg la esok byr. tpi mesti byr before ahad.. klu tak rege tuh suda lain. aiii dlm hati panas jek. dia ingt tmpt neh dekat ker.. nk dtg selalu???! klu dri hostel tuh kne tuka train 3 kali tau. menggelegak betul jiwa.. pfanas2.

so dgn tergesa2.. pegi la cari itu bank. sbb amount dia terlampau besau.. > 300 euro. kne pegi kua kan kat kaunter. aiii mmg nk kne lempang btul la. hape2 aje sistem kad bank dia neh.. owh patut la tdi nk byr xleh... sengaLLLLL. mmg menyusahkan betul la ade limit2 neh. then tau tak dri airport nk pgi bank tuh .. sgt la memenatkan ~ dah la xtau kat ner!! giler

tak pasal2 pegi jmpe pak cik kaunter info.. dia kte bank tu kat city center. so klu naik bas 30 minit.. naik train 12 minit jek. pegila naik train ~ pak cik tuh kate la. aii sila bg tips plak. layann.. pegi la menurut perintah naik train.

jumaat - 2.23pm

waktu ini la train tuh smpi.. pegi la bandar Dusseldorf. pegi lagi!! pdhal smlm bru jek bwk lecturer UKM tuh dtg sni. senget betul la ~ then terpisat2 la pegi cari bank. jumpe!! tapi tuh tmpt withdraw duit shje. ceh.. buang karan betul r. yg cute tuh.. kat situ ade telefon tuk call customer service.

so ngan agak2 segan nye.. (mmg malu giler) tepon la bank, nk tnye kat ner dia nye bank yg ade kaunter! huahua lagi satu mslh.. org tuh reti ckp jerman jerk. mmg cri nahas betul la.. and then penat je memerah otak tuk tnye kat ner tmpt kaunter bank tuh. 'fialle' - thats the word ~ demm! mmg akan ku ingt smpi mati. pastu dia siap bg nasihat lagi.. better pegi cepat sbb bank nk tutop kul 4 and u only have one hour left. (tgk jam.. cet dah kol 3!)

dgn dibantu oleh mamat ensem memberi direction.. akhirnye smpi jgk kat bank tuh. mak aii besa gabak la. series!!! mewah giler bank tuh.. at the end berjaya la wat kua duit. pheeew.. right now going back to airport. kne tgu train lagi.. sigh ~ penat gile. tell u - ke sne ke sni.. mmg mak mandir btul la!!!

jumaat - 4.00pm

byr duit tiket.. tapi bukan dgn Mary. tah pegi mne tah dia tuh ~ ahaha ampeh jek. deal ngan org lain, last2 byr ngan org lain plak.. naseb ler. then dia siap dah plihkan seat dlm flight sume.. bling2. rase lega giler ~

skali... tau tak? selepas ticket tuh di issued.. bru pasan tarikh tuh dah jadi 21 feb la plak! mmg &%$*!^%$ betul la!! how come plak tarikh salah neh.. bongek2. i know it just one day.. tapi implikasi besa la. 21 tuh hari jumaat plak.. elok2 org nk balik hari sabtu. then mase dia ialah kol 2.30 pagi. mmg menyirap darah! sian le my family nk kne anto time2 cenggituh. gilos.. elok2 time booking ritu kol 12.30mlm. now otak pun dah pening2.. penat - xleh nk pk.

and mende plg bodoh is that the transit hour is 9hours! gilo ke apo?? patut ritu 4,5 jam je. nk wat ape kat dubai tuh lelame? damn it la.. mmg time tu dah sgt emo. pastu bile pegi balik kat kaunter - jmpe si Mary sengal tuh, dia bole plak xnk ngaku silap dia. aiii den bab2 nk gaduh ni mmg xbole blah r.. dia bole plak blame kat kite. ok the story is like this..

when fes time book tiket tuh (hari rabu), mmg dia da bg itenary tunjuk sume2 tarikh. then bile nk pegi byr tdi tnye la bole plih seat ke? dia kate klu skyward member bole ~ so dgn mate bersinar2, den kate la den ni skyward member. skali dia ckp kne rebooking balik. ok fine! book je la balik.. so i gave her itenary ritu. ingt kan dia book sebijik la mcm dlm ketas tuh.. skali pepndi plak dia alter!

aii mmg geram nk jmpe manager dia.. dah r dia kte klu nk tuka tarikh kne cas 100 euro. hell no way man! then gaye dia nk defend dri dia tuh mmg sgt xleh blah r. siap kate kte plak yg slah bg tarikh. dah tu org suh ikut itenary asal.. pe ke he nye ngko pegi tukau2! mmg &%$%*@! btul la haih.. saba2. my weakness is that bile dah terlampau geram, xleh nk gaduh2-tgi suare.. tpi jadi nk nangis plak!! demm ~ weaknesss plg xleh blah.

so time dia tgh sebok2 nk defend diri dia tuh.. i just blah!! mmg trase sgt cool la.. amik ko! ingt bagus sgt ler tuh. the customer is always right ok! mmg budaye org jerman nih kasar r. ingt dorg je betul. ritu time nk booking ngan travel agent tuh cmni gak.. kite plak yg salah. bodoh nye pemikiran! last2 travel agent tuh den pangkah (smpi bile2 xmo beli ngan dia).. ni kaunter emirates pun den nk pangkah gak.. pas ni terpakse apply kad kedit sbb nk beli online plak. ahahaha

at the end just stick with the flight plan la.. xkesah la transit 9 jam ke. dh r xdpt hotel ke hape.. tuk business class je dpt. ampeh nye emirates ~

so pengajaran kat sni.. sila cek tiket anda bebetul. am i careless ke hape? tah la.. sbb betul2 ingt dia book the same date with the same time! well bese la.. manusia wat silap kan. tpi silap dia tuh mmg xbole di maafkan. mntk2 la Mary tuh xtdo lena memikirkan kekejaman dia terhadap den! huahuahua

and somehow it makes me think.. mcm2 dugaan plak nk balik nih. ade sesuatu ke yg Allah nk tunjuk? tah la.. hopefully everything will be fine. and bole selamat pergi and selamat pulang ~ gegegege

coz i'm leaving.. on a jet plane~

hurm..

sedih la


pagi tdi pergi anta kawan kterg Pei Tze kat train station. kul 6.30 pagi kene bertolak dri kolej. sbb nk catch up train 6.50 dri tmpt kterg tuk pegi ke main train station.

so as usual la.. me mesti xtdo punye. bukan la sbb asyik terpk pasal pei tze tuh nak balik mesia for good ~ tpi nnt kang konfem xteranta dia. nak tdo awal pon cam xngantuk.. so terpakse stay up.. cet

pei tze ni kire org fes la antre kterg yg balik.. giler dia dah abes sume. sigh ~ thinking how great she've done in here.. nk nangis plak. and somehow i felt a lil bit regret.. coz mcm blaja main2 jerk. demm!!


but u know.. in life - sometimes u have to sacrifice something in order to get what u want. i didn't blame her to be soo nerdy --> slumber ckp dia nerd huahuahua. no la.. she just too focus on her study that's y dia nye result gempak.. thesis cepat siap.. good for her. me? i cannot live with that kind of lifestyle ~ no way!

so i deserved this.. i mean my life right know --> struggling with my thesis.. papers to repeat (part plg sengaL). tah la.. sometimes i really hate myself ~ dowh (+_+). xbaik benci dri sendri agagaga.

tapi tu la kenape la i selalu pk mudah. and mcm terlampau positif in every single things huhu so sometimes mcm.... argh dunno how to tell u. leave it la... i just know my self

ok back to our story.. train pei tze tu kul 7.15. rase sebak sgt time nk tgu tuh.. and time dia peluk2 kterg tuh, dia mcm nk nangis.. huhu klu dia nangis, sure i'll join her. den ni dah r xleh tgk org nangis.. xpasal2 nangis gak --> mmg jenis xbole ajak tgk cte hindustan.

pei tze is leaving! gosh.. maybe dah rapat sgt kot. so deeply inside my heart.. mmg sedih la. waaaaaaaaaaa nanges2! (hape2 la.. org tuh dh r nk balik mesia jek.. mcm nnt xjmpe jerk! aiish)

well byk sgt kenangan bersame ~ itu baru pei tze yg balik. ni kalau marni, muny or razmi yg balik tah cne tah. huhuhu kyah xmasok lam list la.. sbb dia smbg wat master. konpem dia balik lagi lmbt dri den ~ ekekekeke

huff.. ok calm down.. jgn terlampau emotional sgt.

at the end sume pun akan lead our own life. tak kan nk bersame smpi mati kan. so just keep the memory alive.. eh btul ke ayat ni.. antam la labu ~

kenangan terindah.. bawa la smpi ke akhir hayat. live with it..

me and pei tze @ LONDON

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alkesahnye ~

one day chatting with my dear friend..


me: lelaki susah la nk cri yg betul2 commited
me: selalu girl je yg lelebih
me: haih tu susah..

her: tula
her: but then.. u know what
her: after i read many books on relationship
her: actually, bukannye dorang tak committed
her: kite yang terlampau clingy on to them
her: seriously
her: if i had known about this.. i think things would have been different in my past relationships
her: and same goes to my marriage jugak

me: yeke...

her: betul najwa
her: believe me
her: they want space

me: kite terlampau clingy... hurm...
me: new tips

her: and... if u were to compare antara guys normal.. and guys yang too comitted
her: i am sure u'd prefer the normal ones
her: sbb they have a life

me: yela.. too commited tuh mcm konkong plak

her: betul
her: lama2 mcm rimas kan
her: kite terfikir la
her: mcm my ex dulu kan
her: he was the type yang i ingat tak comitted
her: but then now, when i look back
her: actually bukan tak comitted
her: he had his own life
her: and he wanted me to have mine

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so.. which one do you prefer??

it changed my mind actually.. i mean the way i thought about 'committed' guy.. huhu pangkah2.. sila la vote for normal guy ok?

my last chance

aiiiii... it keeps on bothering me ~


all i want right now is me focusing on my thesis!!!



but.. somehow
i'm waiting for something.. a good news maybe.. at least one final shot.. or else.. everything is finished! (+_+)



really hard to make decision.. what makes me want to hold on really tight??? cRazy ~


p/s: sure u don't understand what i'm mumbling about ~


the story behind the post...

1. going back to malaysia on 10 jan until 22 feb (my original planning). do practical from april until july - leaving germany forever by august
   
2. planning altered by my mom and my sis... i have to go back for good on 10 jan ~ sigh
3. problem encountered : my study still not finished yet ~ couldn't make it before 10 jan. however it can be settled in malaysia. since everything could be done in malaysian.. exams, certificates etc. it has been a vital reason for my family asking me going back to malaysia - FOREVER. dowh!!
4. situation : haven't got my practical yet.. if i have one then definitely going to stay here until august. and my further planning is... working in germany for at least 1 year. just to gain experience.
   
5. my last chance : within this 10 days.. if i haven't got any reply from companies. i'm finished!

lol... please pray for me. i should be panic right know actually.. but still acting cool ahaha. y? never stop HOPING, never stop BELIEVING ~ never ever! bacause ALLAH KNOWS BEST

really hate this number --> 10!!! why am i giving myself 10 more days? because i want to book the flight one month before the date.. meaning on 10 dec i'm going to buy the ticket and have to made up my mind by that time ~

tick tock.. tick tock.. time is ticking