AISHITERU ( Menunggu )-by ZIVILIA BAND

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
menantikan kehadiran dirimu
entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk kujalani
hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
kadang kuberpikir cari penggantimu
saat kau jauh disana
ooo…

Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan
saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiranku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

walau raga kita terpisah jauh
namun hati kita selalu dekat
bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku
kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
percayakan kesetiaan ini
akan tulus a a ai aishiteru


hapus sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
perasaan resah gelisah
jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah

banyak segala misi dan ambisimu
akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu untukku
kumohon kau kembali

pressure... *bukan pressure cooker WMF yea

huff.. here your are in my blog. you suke kan when i write about you in here. i pressure la tau tak..? why you doing this to me.. dah la i tengah pening nak cari rumah. then tetibe you buat hal plak time2 macam ni.. i really need you ='(

you = my laptop hahs thanks

k bye

my little secreT.. ssshh

you know.. somehow i think i didn't even made enough effort to find my Mr. Right.. =/

to be honest.. i hardly pray for my Mr. Right in my doa after prayers =/

the reason might be.. because:

firstly.. saya selalu doa untuk jadi kaya hua2 =D okaaaaay just kidding..! i don't know.. maybe i dont feel like having one.. YET. fufuuuh that's too bad ya..

btw i always had this angan2 - i want to doa in Mekah depan Kaabah and bumped --> i found my jodoh in Mekah.. yadda yadda.. i love dreaming eh? amiiin

secondly.. i always feel that i have this big responsible to my younger siblings and my mom. you know.. work hard and earn big money for them. i tell you.. we are not rich ya. even though my mom never asked money from me but i always want to support the family.. fufuuuuh my brotha and sisters all get married already and have their own life..

so here we are.. 5 of us in the house. and i know my younger brothas tak boleh di harap ceh.. =/ dont worry adik2.. i dont mind kawen lambat for you all.. muaaax

and owh ya.. my mother always ask about my boyfriend.. haiya mummy you always see i hang out with my gurlfriendsss.. so surely dont have one la gege *the hardest thing bout having lots of good girl friends is maybe you family will think you are GAY haha.. chillax mummy.. i wanna get married definitely..!! just that i couldn't find the guy yet.. kalau the girl tu mungkin sorang dua i dah jumpa kot haha =P

thirdly.. i probably sudah terkena sumpahan kot. lols.. no lah maybe i had too many girl friends (groups) and i can say 50% of them are still single. so marriage is not a big issue though.. errr maybe within some groups (i had >5 groups kot -_-')

owh yeah i'm still 25 yaa.. birthday lambat lagi. but i wanna see myself married at the age of 26 ngahaha =D gosh time is ticking and i only have one year one month and ten days left..!!

dear god.. Allah Almighty.. perkenankan doa hambamu ini dan semoga mendapat seruan dan panggilan-Mu ke Tanah Haram Mac tahun depan.. amiin >____<

p/s: it's time for me to move on and finding the right path.. please forgive me for any wrong doings.. after all i'm just a human.. and please remember one thing - to err is human ;)

i miss us.. truly deeply madly

'boring la duk jerman'... i told this kakak. and she said 'yela.. sebab u xde kawan'... ='((

honestly it wasn't easy.. dulu time degree yela.. ada kawan2. i have US (marni, muny, kyah, razmi).. and now i'm alone doing my master. suddenly i terfikir.. y am i coming back here geeeez -_-' well.. maybe sebab TUM je kot.. otherwise ntah la huhu

i promise to myself that i will never ever come to Germany againnnn..!!!! *please slap me 88x if i'm planning to do my phd in Germany.. in future ya =/

but then.. i think i'm lucky enough to have a very supportive.. very kind.. and friendly international friends. i mean all my coursemates.. they are the best..!!

still.. i would prefer going out and hang out with my friends - talking in MALAY..!! hufff seriesly.. language is a big challenge for us. you know ha.. it's very difficult to understand vietnamese english because they have a very strong accent.. same goes to pakistani.. irani.. indian.. ukraine.. etc2 (kang xpasal2 duk list sume negara budak2 ni.. banyak giler kot fufuuh)

there's nothing to talk to with them you know.. hurm or maybe i have to polish my english with extravaganza words so that i can ask them macam2 grrr so boring =/

greetings from Munich

assalamualaikum..

pergh lame giLer tak blogging.. yeap it's been a while. i'm very busy m'adaptkan dri kat sini (Munich). its been a month.. since my arrival tho. thank god everything is in order.. except for one thing which is for the room. i still couldn't find one grrr tensen giler kot.

so at the moment.. i'm staying with this lovely-malaysian-family.. ^^ erm nothing much to write at the moment. see you next time wokey =)