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today happy already...

i'm always overanxious about something without knowing it for certain ~ only when it comes to family.

no wonder ~ sometimes they hiding something from me. but sibling love is one of the strongest bonds on the planet... they'll told me. eventually. hehehe

my family are overprotective over me ~ hiding 'things' that they think might be interrupting my study

and when i knew about that 'things' from my sister, my brother will covered it up. and vise versa.

doch! how old am i? i'm not a little girl anymore ~

yeah maybe at first when i knew.. i'll think about it. worrying like hell.. even my mind was somewhere else ~ huhu

but then i'll settle down.. that's normal la right? i'm not going to cry silently under the blanket or sitting on the corner of the bed - crying!

that is why.. i want to go back as soon as possible. go through the good and bad time together. face the hardships as a team

hopefully everything will be just fine ~ (^_^)

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'baby' new born...

yesterday was my brother's birthday. and i was very excited knowing that he just bought a new camera -Nikon d80- for himself. what a present ~ ahahaha

he has been talking about the camera since last few months. and i'm just planning to buy the camera for him when i fly back to Malaysia. seems like i can save the money and buy something else hehe pheeeeew

and right now.. can't wait to try the new camera. i just love SLR - which impress me much!

what abOut now?

listening to Chris Daughtry song - 'what about now'

think the title suits me now ~



this weekend NOVEMBER already.. on 7th January i'm going back to Malaysia. but still not sure for good or not ~ MY GOD!



for the first time in my life - i was unsure what to do. clueless.... now just want to leave it behind and let time do the work.


but my mind is blocked. couldn't focus on my thesis.. not even my life ~




today i walked around Duisburg city.. went window shopping -photo album and jacket-.. ate ice-cream.. BUT one thing for sure - my mind was somewhere else!

big problem ~ yes!



what's on my mind?
- family. since yesterday.. nope - recently i guess... shocking news from home really make me worry like he**





i think my family need me...

i'm not taking the selfish road.. hopefully i'll find the solution





'Ya Allah.. give me guidance and hidayah.. show me the right path..'

jawab.. jangan tak jawab (3)

hari ini sungguh membosankan. mari kita layan survey ni ~

1. The age u will be on your next birthday

number doesn't mean anything ~

2. A place u'd like to travel to

interlaken switzerland - plan for winter trip huhu

jUngfRaujOch - top of eUrope

3. Your favourite place

'eiffel tower - paris' the best among the best

'pulau redang - berjaya' the most beautiful place in malaysia

4. Your favourite f0od...

kalau pegi restoran mesti order nasi goreng ayam masak merah. then tom yam ni fav kat umah je best2

croissant.. jatuh hati time naik flight dtg jerman.. then kat sni pong sedap2 croissant dia. xmcm kat mesia
kek pisang - after jmpe resepi yg sgt best trus jdi fav hehe

cocktail... macau/portugese egg tart - plg sedap kat bakers cottage

lasagna and pizza.. all time favourite ~

memperkenalkan... kiri - DURUM ; kanan - ayam golek. ni je la mknn yg kterg order time g restoran turki.. de lagi satu - doner, tpi xbest la. xgemar ~

chicken chop @ c'kop (bahase muny)

above all... still mom's cook is the best in the world (^_^). can't wait to go home.. lalalala

5. Your favourite pet animal

the one and only pet in our house... kEigo. sayang dia - dah setaun xjmpe mesti sgt gemoook

2 ekor ni pun penah gak hadir dalam hidup kiterang.. tapi xlame sob sob ~

6. Your favourite color c0mbination

lime and black.. since high school. pengaruh tiyah ke hurm.. tpi dia de byk brg lime. xleh blah. nanti nk beli satu album combination color dia cmni gak ngehehe suke2

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

winter clothes... love it sooooo much. kalau kat mesia konfem xsesuai pakai huahuahua

8. Your all time current favourite song

9. Your favourite Tv shows (currently)

10. The first name of your significant other/crush.

11. The town U live in

awan je lebih.. uhuhu ni la view belakang umah - Putrajaya

12. Your first job

handling family business

13. Your dream job

business woman and civil engineer

14. A bad habit u have

suka tido lambat..

15. Your worse fear

sesungguhnya.. perasaan takut itu hanya kepada Allah swt

16. One thing u'd like to do b4 u die

mengerjakan haji dan umrah.. insya allah

misi mencari daun

siapa nak daun? sila bagi nama penuh beserta ucapan yang handak di tulis di atas daun tersebut ~ ehehehe promosi terhad sehingga hujung bulan 10 sahaja!

ada apa dengan daun?
sebenarnya dedaun di sini lain sedikit dari malaysia. di tambah pula di waktu musim luruh ini. boleh bayangkan - 'autumn leaves'? sangat menarik dan kuning! tidak terdapat di mana-mana kawasan di malaysia mahupun di pasar raya berdekatan.

idea baru
baru-baru ini tiba-tiba mendapat ilham. untuk mengumpul daun-daun ini dan menulis sesuatu di atasnya. yela, mungkin musim luruh tahun hadapan tidak berkesempatan lagi. dan rasanya daun ini bakal menjadi cenderahati paling bermakna buat keluarga dan teman. tapi masalah nya hendak tulis apa ya? selain dari 'najwa - essen germany', tarikh mahupun tandatangan.

sebenarnya sudah banyak daun yang sudah ditulis.. (senyap-senyap telah berjaya mengumpul beberapa daun - untuk testing2!) hasilnya ok ~ tapi mungkin silap besar menggunakan pen dakwat basah kerana kembang pula dakwat itu. sigh (+_+).. akan tetapi jika menggunakan pen biasa, bisa pula mencederakan daun tersebut. adei.. pfening den! tetapi menulis di atas daun sememangnya satu cabaran.

tekstur daun
buat pengetahuan daun yang dikutip merupakan dedaun yang terpilih sahaja. daun lain jgn kecil hati ya. ciri-ciri daun (tips buat marni - sibuk pula mengcopycat idea gue.. huahuahua)

1. sempurna fizikalnya.. bermakna daun itu tidaklah terkoyak walau sedikit pun
2. mempunyai tangkai.. lebih panjang lebih comel pula
3. warna yang kekuningan.. awas! kadang kala ada juga yg telah menjadi kering - warna agak kecoklatan. jadi daun begini agak tidak sesuai
   
4. daun 3 kelopak atau 5 kelopak.. eh daun juga panggil kelopak kah? maksud kelopak itu faham-faham sahajalah. nanti tengok gambar di bawah
5. saiz.. jika hendak dikirim melalui pos, maka daun nya haruslah kecil sahaja. jika besar nanti terpaksa pula dilipat-lipat. owh semalam berjaya mengambil daun yang sangat besar untuk keluarga. hehe love it

pendek kata memang cerewet sekali untuk memilih daun ini. terpaksa mengambil masa yang lama dan menahan malu juga kerana tiba-tiba sahaja pergi mengutip daun di tepi jalan ~ huhu

masalah baru
hari ini tiba-tiba terperasan - daun yg kekuningan itu menjadi 'over dried'! kerana semalam 'terletak' pula dedaun ini di tepi alat pemanas! apa lagi.. bertukar rupa semuanya.. daun yang lawa menjadi melengkung, kuncup.. warna yang kuning bertukar coklat.. hih! terpaksa esok mencari lebih banyak daun lagi. mintak-mintak pihak bandaraya belum lagi membersihkan dedaun tersebut ~

daun 3 dan 5 kelopak.. hih kenapa macam pelik guna perkataan kelopak yea? perkataan lain please!

musim luruh yang mendamaikan jiwa.. the best season ever!

writing ...... thesis

last exam paper - 22/09/2008 : today - 19/10/2008

it has been quite sometime.... since i finished my study. within that period of time.. guess what i've done? NOTHING!! other than going out... - berpeleseran!

i have not yet completed my double degrees... not until i submit my THESIS!! oh it's killing me now ~

really need something/someone to boost me up! otherwise i'm still in a sleep mode (+_+)

what's/who's to blame?

• environment - now it's autumn..
  

no, i'm not going to blame the yellow leaves falling off the trees. NONSENSE yar ~ actually... the feeling isn't there..

sOlution :: tryin' to get the feeling ~ very easy to say.. really hard to do! huhu it's ok.. that's my problem not yours

• mind setting - no rush.. i'm not in a hurry

i have nothing/nobody to push me.. yes, i'm going back to Malaysia on january but it doesn't matter whether i finished my thesis or not. why? because i'm coming back to Germany. but my family did ask about the thesis! asking - how was it going - whether i could make it or not - hufffs

sOlution :: tryin' to rush a lil' bit ~ set in mind - probably (50%) not coming back here huhuhu

• the thesis itself - read articlesssssssssssssss

ahahaha is it logic to blame the thesis? in my case... yeah maybe. because need lots of reading - kind of boring ~ to death! have you ever done an analysis? then you'll know how i feel huhu

sOlution :: practice conditioning my mind with positive thoughts... reading to gain more informations and to get a different perspective - haha what a positive thinking!!

• blogging - steal my time

sometimes.. yes. if i'm not blogging then i could at least spend more time writing my thesis. fyi - i'm still drafting my London trips! i know.. i wrote it too details. the reason - one day when i read back my blog, then i would memorized.. every single things and details. you know someday.. we'll having memory problems. so this one is a precaution ~ hehe

sOlution :: it's all down to how you choose to use your time ~ its called time management!

• myself ? - more effort
  

yeah actually its me! the biggest prob.. right know i want to slap myself ~ but then it's gonna hurt hoho postpone la... later! =p

sOlution :: finding the new me.. a new beginning maybe.

'there's always a light at the end of the tunnel'

sOmeTimes iN liFe...

sometimes in life..... bad things just happen

sometimes in life..... we need to cry

sometimes in life..... we take it too easy

sometimes in life..... we think we are strong enough

sometimes in life..... we have to step back to move forward

Ups and downs are a part of life

Don't let them affect you in anyway

For life is a bouquet of miracles

Don't let it just slip away

Everybody in life

Faces their moments of despair

But in those moments

Don't forget that ALLAH hears each prayer

In those moments of sorrow

Don't let go the little moments of joy

Someday, take time to relax

And stare at the moonlight bathed sky

It may not solve your problems

But bring to you some peace of mind

Amidst those tears—

Maybe a little smile you'll find

Then keep up the faith and never quit

There is something positive

Even when you are hardest hit

Sometimes little things in life

Matter a lot

Things don't always happen

The way you had thought

Many times you'll fail in life

But never let life fail you

Remember

Sometimes adversities are sent

To bring out the best in you

sEpI tHe mOviE

i know it might be out of date.. i just watched the movie..

when i first knew about SEPI.. i have a feeling it's going to be as good as CINTA ~..

and i was absolutely right.. the film was damn good!!!..

i really admire kabir bhatia.. the way he directed the film..

what else could i say.. superb..

but..

as far as i knew.. the film failed to attract audiences..

not even reached the box office.. take a look at this..

source : FINAS

that was really.. something unbelievable..

SEPI failed to make a profit.. not even recover the budget..

what's wrong with our malaysia.. i don't know what's up with the mentality..

too many Hollywood movies these days.. or something wrong with the genre..

no idea ~..

but as for me.. frankly..

SEPI - best movie of the year ~

sELamaT haRijaDI

:: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ::

Wishing you a wonderful and blessful birthday

Wish you all the best in life & everything

Wish you happiness all the time

Allah Bless You!

Rina Raihanee - 2 September

Khadijah Hussain - 26 September

Nurul Ain Mat Kassim - 26 September

Nuf Faezah Hadzir - 26 September

Siti Nur Fareha - 6 Oktober

Aisyah Taifor - 12 Oktober

Raja Aini Fairuz - 13 Oktober

Siti Nurul Hidayah - 21 Oktober

Noor Atiyah - 25 Oktober

Rasyiqah Mustafar - 30 Oktober

Nasru Syazwan Nawai - 30 Oktober

fRoNtpaGe

now it's 5.16 am in the morning. just finished catching up a new series on NTV7 - FRONTPAGE. i think its a new one.. not really though.. since i've been catching up until the 4th episode =p. but what i want to share with you is that i like this series!

after watching 2 episodes, i just knew that the director is Kabir Bhatia huahuahua he is one of my fav directors after his marvelous film CINTA. but i did not have a chance to watch his 2nd film yet ~ SEPI. maybe have to wait until i go back to Malaysia. really hard to find Malay movies online =( even on youtube i couldn't find one! please... somebody upload that movie for me hehehe

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SYNOPSIS

FRONTPAGE is a riveting new drama from award-winning filmmakers Kabir Bhatia and Mira Mustaffa that details the inner workings at top newspaper The Voice. This hard-hitting series features stories inspired by events and developments that grabbed headlines in the past.

Original characters like streetwise reporter Jack, by-the-rules journalist Dylan, savvy editor Andrea and rookie journalist Nerina will be featured in FRONTPAGE, which is told in a multiple-language format, and based on the reality of life in Malaysia.

It is also completely shot in high-definition video, providing for a more detailed look and feel. FRONTPAGE truly provides an insight into the lives of reporters, what goes on behind the headlines, and how the news is brought to you daily.

CAST

Dylan Pereira

Age: 35
Journalist, Newsdesk

Personality
Organised, charming.

Backstory
Dylan has climbed the proverbial ladder one step at a time. Although he is passionate about his work, Dylan believes in playing by the book - no gray areas, no crossing the lines. It annoys him to see Jack getting away with some of the things he does. And how Andrea lets him. Apparently the same rules do not apply to Jack as to everyone else.

Dylan is also less than happy with Jack and Andrea's past relationship. He suspects she still has feelings for Jack, although she denies it.

Andrea Ng

Age: 30
Editor, Newsdesk

Personality
Tough but fair

Backstory
Andrea knows as a woman handling the news desk of the country's biggest newspaper, she is always in the firing line -from the public, from the bosses, and from the journalists. There's always someone, somewhere who is displeased with her. She develops a tough exterior, but we see a more vulnerable side of her outside of work.

Andrea and Jack dated when she first joined the newspaper, but Jack's too much of a loner to ever really commit to anyone. Andrea is now dating Dylan, but in the back of her mind, she's always wondered if Dylan is with her for herself, or is it some twisted way of up one ship in his rivalry with Jack.

Nerina Rehman

Age: 23
Rookie Journalist

Personality
Idealistic, eager.

Backstory
Nerina had wanted to be journalist since she was in Standard 5 - when her expose on "ulat in the nasi lemak" in the school paper caused the school to change canteen operator and the other kids to think of her as a hero. She joins the newspaper in spite of her wealthy father's protests, fully intending to bring down the bad guys and rescuing the innocent. But Nerina is about to discover that the bad guys are sometimes the good guys.

Nerina has a huge crush on Jack, but he is intent on pushing her away. Nerina is unaware of Jack and Andrea's past, and wonders why Andrea is very sharp to her sometimes and overly protective at others.

Jack Lee

Age: 35
Senior Journalist, Newsdesk

Personality
Aloof, rebellious. Jack prefers to do things on his own and in his own way. He does not play by the rules and hates authority figures. He takes his job seriously and will not stop at anything to bring the truth to the people. But at the same time Jack has an emotional distance to his stories. He learned how to do that, the hard way.

Backstory
When Jack was a rookie reporter, he made a promise to a whistleblower of a corporate giant, to print his story. But Jack was shut down by his editor for lack of evidence. (or fear of retaliation by the corporation?) The whistleblower committed suicide. Jack felt responsible and it took a long time before he could forget (but not forgive himself).

Jack was offered to post of editor a few years back, but he refused. He is not a desk person, and he will never leave the street. Andrea accepted the position.

Lulu Chia

Age: 26
Senior Journalist, Lifestyle

Personality
Bubbly, caustic.

Backstory
Lulu has a sharp tongue, and a sharper pen. Her stories have embarrassed actresses, designers, record companies. She is someone everyone in the entertainment industry loves to hate. Lulu is not bothered when people tell her she's tak tahu malu. After all she's not making up the stories, she's just reporting them. Her view is - if you don't want it in the papers, don't do it.

Growing up, Lulu constantly struggled with issues of self-esteem. She was always big for her age, and her "unique" tastes in clothes became the butt of jokes. Lulu sees her position in the newspaper as divine retribution. It's her job to bring down all those beautiful people who made life miserable for people like her, people who are different

Rebecca Anuar

Age: 27
Senior Journalist

Personality
Tough, serious & cautious.

Backstory
Rebecca says what's on her mind, always. She appears cold, and arrogant, but her tough exterior hides a troubled past. At a young age, her father, an Englishman, abandoned her mother. To make ends meet, her mother worked as a cleaning lady (orang gaji) for a wealthy man. The man cared for both Rebecca and her mother very deeply and ended up marrying her mother. That was when Rebecca's nightmare started.

When she was 12, her "father" crept into her bed at night and all that was good and innocent in her died. Rebecca kept it to herself for a long time because first she was ashamed, and later because she saw how happy her mother was. She couldn't bear to take that away from her, and see her working as a maid again. At 13, Rebecca ran away from home. Her mother and stepfather found her and took her home. At 14 she attempted suicide by drinking poison. She was saved. At 15, begged to be sent to boarding school. Her stepfather objected, but Rebecca warned that she would kill herself.

In boarding school, Rebecca excelled in her studies, and every other girl hated her for her antisocial behavior. Her interest in journalism stemmed from the need to expose the truth. Once she left home, she never went back. She cut all ties with her mother, and her stepfather. After university, she joined the Tribune, and quickly became a top notch reporter. She has never had a relationship with any man. She left the Tribune, for The Voice because one of her colleagues "wanted to know her better (romantically)". Rebecca crumbles at the prospect of anyone getting to know her. Despite her facade of confidence, she always feels that she is spoiled goods, and not worthy to be loved. Or to love.

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ok that is what the series is about. maybe you have heard about it or maybe you are following this series... doesn't matter. for those who are not even know about this series, watch it first. then judge it ~ i love to watch Jehan is this series. he is completely different, his acting is better than before (couldn't remember which series he was in before).

actually I'm not really into series.. really tired to catch up the episodes. but since living in Germany is 'so-bored-to-death' i don't have any choices other than following those TV series eg. dunia baru, sindarela and currently ku milikmu + frontpage. i didn't even follow any of korean, taiwan or japan series. weird huh? but i do know the story.. i mean if people talked about Full House then i know ~ owh its about a boy and this girl.. the story is like this.. the actor and actress are that one.

as far as i remember, i've only watched 2 series - my girl and winter sonata. that is before i came here. now.. i think it has been quite a number but still <10 hahaha what a loser. i do watch f.r.i.e.n.d.s and smallville... and i'm a die hard fan of CSI's. but still ~ countable.. compare to others mine was at the bottom three - i guess. well i've always loved movies.. that's the reason why. i only watched movie channels (Astro 40-42 : if there is no changing). and sometimes AXN for CSI's and sport channels only for Arsenal game.

maybe i need someone to push me.. 'watch this one, watch that series'.. just like what iman did to me. because of her suggestion and recommendation and promotion about MY GIRL, finally i watched it. it was damn good, i like it so much ~ thanks my dear. and after that i've been promoting this series to my friends. ahahahaha its really funny when someone who is not-a-series-fan influence others to watch a series!