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today happy already...

i'm always overanxious about something without knowing it for certain ~ only when it comes to family.

no wonder ~ sometimes they hiding something from me. but sibling love is one of the strongest bonds on the planet... they'll told me. eventually. hehehe

my family are overprotective over me ~ hiding 'things' that they think might be interrupting my study

and when i knew about that 'things' from my sister, my brother will covered it up. and vise versa.

doch! how old am i? i'm not a little girl anymore ~

yeah maybe at first when i knew.. i'll think about it. worrying like hell.. even my mind was somewhere else ~ huhu

but then i'll settle down.. that's normal la right? i'm not going to cry silently under the blanket or sitting on the corner of the bed - crying!

that is why.. i want to go back as soon as possible. go through the good and bad time together. face the hardships as a team

hopefully everything will be just fine ~ (^_^)

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'baby' new born...

yesterday was my brother's birthday. and i was very excited knowing that he just bought a new camera -Nikon d80- for himself. what a present ~ ahahaha

he has been talking about the camera since last few months. and i'm just planning to buy the camera for him when i fly back to Malaysia. seems like i can save the money and buy something else hehe pheeeeew

and right now.. can't wait to try the new camera. i just love SLR - which impress me much!

what abOut now?

listening to Chris Daughtry song - 'what about now'

think the title suits me now ~



this weekend NOVEMBER already.. on 7th January i'm going back to Malaysia. but still not sure for good or not ~ MY GOD!



for the first time in my life - i was unsure what to do. clueless.... now just want to leave it behind and let time do the work.


but my mind is blocked. couldn't focus on my thesis.. not even my life ~




today i walked around Duisburg city.. went window shopping -photo album and jacket-.. ate ice-cream.. BUT one thing for sure - my mind was somewhere else!

big problem ~ yes!



what's on my mind?
- family. since yesterday.. nope - recently i guess... shocking news from home really make me worry like he**





i think my family need me...

i'm not taking the selfish road.. hopefully i'll find the solution





'Ya Allah.. give me guidance and hidayah.. show me the right path..'

jawab.. jangan tak jawab (3)

hari ini sungguh membosankan. mari kita layan survey ni ~

1. The age u will be on your next birthday

number doesn't mean anything ~

2. A place u'd like to travel to

interlaken switzerland - plan for winter trip huhu

jUngfRaujOch - top of eUrope

3. Your favourite place

'eiffel tower - paris' the best among the best

'pulau redang - berjaya' the most beautiful place in malaysia

4. Your favourite f0od...

kalau pegi restoran mesti order nasi goreng ayam masak merah. then tom yam ni fav kat umah je best2

croissant.. jatuh hati time naik flight dtg jerman.. then kat sni pong sedap2 croissant dia. xmcm kat mesia
kek pisang - after jmpe resepi yg sgt best trus jdi fav hehe

cocktail... macau/portugese egg tart - plg sedap kat bakers cottage

lasagna and pizza.. all time favourite ~

memperkenalkan... kiri - DURUM ; kanan - ayam golek. ni je la mknn yg kterg order time g restoran turki.. de lagi satu - doner, tpi xbest la. xgemar ~

chicken chop @ c'kop (bahase muny)

above all... still mom's cook is the best in the world (^_^). can't wait to go home.. lalalala

5. Your favourite pet animal

the one and only pet in our house... kEigo. sayang dia - dah setaun xjmpe mesti sgt gemoook

2 ekor ni pun penah gak hadir dalam hidup kiterang.. tapi xlame sob sob ~

6. Your favourite color c0mbination

lime and black.. since high school. pengaruh tiyah ke hurm.. tpi dia de byk brg lime. xleh blah. nanti nk beli satu album combination color dia cmni gak ngehehe suke2

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

winter clothes... love it sooooo much. kalau kat mesia konfem xsesuai pakai huahuahua

8. Your all time current favourite song

9. Your favourite Tv shows (currently)

10. The first name of your significant other/crush.

11. The town U live in

awan je lebih.. uhuhu ni la view belakang umah - Putrajaya

12. Your first job

handling family business

13. Your dream job

business woman and civil engineer

14. A bad habit u have

suka tido lambat..

15. Your worse fear

sesungguhnya.. perasaan takut itu hanya kepada Allah swt

16. One thing u'd like to do b4 u die

mengerjakan haji dan umrah.. insya allah

misi mencari daun

siapa nak daun? sila bagi nama penuh beserta ucapan yang handak di tulis di atas daun tersebut ~ ehehehe promosi terhad sehingga hujung bulan 10 sahaja!

ada apa dengan daun?
sebenarnya dedaun di sini lain sedikit dari malaysia. di tambah pula di waktu musim luruh ini. boleh bayangkan - 'autumn leaves'? sangat menarik dan kuning! tidak terdapat di mana-mana kawasan di malaysia mahupun di pasar raya berdekatan.

idea baru
baru-baru ini tiba-tiba mendapat ilham. untuk mengumpul daun-daun ini dan menulis sesuatu di atasnya. yela, mungkin musim luruh tahun hadapan tidak berkesempatan lagi. dan rasanya daun ini bakal menjadi cenderahati paling bermakna buat keluarga dan teman. tapi masalah nya hendak tulis apa ya? selain dari 'najwa - essen germany', tarikh mahupun tandatangan.

sebenarnya sudah banyak daun yang sudah ditulis.. (senyap-senyap telah berjaya mengumpul beberapa daun - untuk testing2!) hasilnya ok ~ tapi mungkin silap besar menggunakan pen dakwat basah kerana kembang pula dakwat itu. sigh (+_+).. akan tetapi jika menggunakan pen biasa, bisa pula mencederakan daun tersebut. adei.. pfening den! tetapi menulis di atas daun sememangnya satu cabaran.

tekstur daun
buat pengetahuan daun yang dikutip merupakan dedaun yang terpilih sahaja. daun lain jgn kecil hati ya. ciri-ciri daun (tips buat marni - sibuk pula mengcopycat idea gue.. huahuahua)

1. sempurna fizikalnya.. bermakna daun itu tidaklah terkoyak walau sedikit pun
2. mempunyai tangkai.. lebih panjang lebih comel pula
3. warna yang kekuningan.. awas! kadang kala ada juga yg telah menjadi kering - warna agak kecoklatan. jadi daun begini agak tidak sesuai
   
4. daun 3 kelopak atau 5 kelopak.. eh daun juga panggil kelopak kah? maksud kelopak itu faham-faham sahajalah. nanti tengok gambar di bawah
5. saiz.. jika hendak dikirim melalui pos, maka daun nya haruslah kecil sahaja. jika besar nanti terpaksa pula dilipat-lipat. owh semalam berjaya mengambil daun yang sangat besar untuk keluarga. hehe love it

pendek kata memang cerewet sekali untuk memilih daun ini. terpaksa mengambil masa yang lama dan menahan malu juga kerana tiba-tiba sahaja pergi mengutip daun di tepi jalan ~ huhu

masalah baru
hari ini tiba-tiba terperasan - daun yg kekuningan itu menjadi 'over dried'! kerana semalam 'terletak' pula dedaun ini di tepi alat pemanas! apa lagi.. bertukar rupa semuanya.. daun yang lawa menjadi melengkung, kuncup.. warna yang kuning bertukar coklat.. hih! terpaksa esok mencari lebih banyak daun lagi. mintak-mintak pihak bandaraya belum lagi membersihkan dedaun tersebut ~

daun 3 dan 5 kelopak.. hih kenapa macam pelik guna perkataan kelopak yea? perkataan lain please!

musim luruh yang mendamaikan jiwa.. the best season ever!

writing ...... thesis

last exam paper - 22/09/2008 : today - 19/10/2008

it has been quite sometime.... since i finished my study. within that period of time.. guess what i've done? NOTHING!! other than going out... - berpeleseran!

i have not yet completed my double degrees... not until i submit my THESIS!! oh it's killing me now ~

really need something/someone to boost me up! otherwise i'm still in a sleep mode (+_+)

what's/who's to blame?

• environment - now it's autumn..
  

no, i'm not going to blame the yellow leaves falling off the trees. NONSENSE yar ~ actually... the feeling isn't there..

sOlution :: tryin' to get the feeling ~ very easy to say.. really hard to do! huhu it's ok.. that's my problem not yours

• mind setting - no rush.. i'm not in a hurry

i have nothing/nobody to push me.. yes, i'm going back to Malaysia on january but it doesn't matter whether i finished my thesis or not. why? because i'm coming back to Germany. but my family did ask about the thesis! asking - how was it going - whether i could make it or not - hufffs

sOlution :: tryin' to rush a lil' bit ~ set in mind - probably (50%) not coming back here huhuhu

• the thesis itself - read articlesssssssssssssss

ahahaha is it logic to blame the thesis? in my case... yeah maybe. because need lots of reading - kind of boring ~ to death! have you ever done an analysis? then you'll know how i feel huhu

sOlution :: practice conditioning my mind with positive thoughts... reading to gain more informations and to get a different perspective - haha what a positive thinking!!

• blogging - steal my time

sometimes.. yes. if i'm not blogging then i could at least spend more time writing my thesis. fyi - i'm still drafting my London trips! i know.. i wrote it too details. the reason - one day when i read back my blog, then i would memorized.. every single things and details. you know someday.. we'll having memory problems. so this one is a precaution ~ hehe

sOlution :: it's all down to how you choose to use your time ~ its called time management!

• myself ? - more effort
  

yeah actually its me! the biggest prob.. right know i want to slap myself ~ but then it's gonna hurt hoho postpone la... later! =p

sOlution :: finding the new me.. a new beginning maybe.

'there's always a light at the end of the tunnel'