innalillah... al fatihah

pagi tadi.. dapat ym dari kimah.. dia kte ayah nurul meninggal malam tadi kul 12. dah la mamai2 baru bgn tido. then xtau nk buat ape... huhu

flashed back...


knowing nurul... is one of the best moment ever. not only her.. but all my good friends at PASUM - pusat asasi sains universiti malaya. owh slumber den dh penah masuk 3 universiti sbnanye, UM-UKM-UDE huahuahua hebat ke? sronok jugak.. bole rase mcm2 environment ngee.

setahun matrikulasi dekat pasum, mmg syok giler. ye la baru keluar dri alam sekolah kan. then masuk U plak tuh. mmg culture shock jugak la.. sbb pasum neh mmg lain dri yg lain. then life pun macam super tertekan jugak la.. sbb tiap2 hari klas kul 8-5. mmg loser pun ader.. malam wat tutorial.. atau spesicifnye copy tutorial wahkahkahkah (xpenah suke wat tutor sendri --> pelajar bermasalah)

tpi life kat pasum.. banyak mende yg baru belajar.. contoh paling best ialah study smpi xtido malam. mmg tabiat ini sgt popular antra me, nuri, bb, nad and nurul klate terutama apabila musim exam then terbawa2 plak smpi UKM.. even kat sni pon slalu wat. ngeeee tpi result tak de gmpak sgt pon. so mende ni hanya valid tuk najwa je yea.. sbb i can cope with it and i just love my result hahaha and yg best jugak kat pasum smpt blaja cmne nk main minesweeper. ala game lam komputer nih. dlu slalu tgk abg main, tpi dia xpnah nk aja.. kerek jek. haishh

tpi kat pasum, nuri la yg aja... hehe best2. xpasal2 tuh la game yg plg addicted plus game mario ~ ngeh2.. tu pun naseb baik de 3 bijik conputer lam blik study kat kolej kterg. klu x mmg xmen la mende2 nih. mne ade komputer pong... zaman tuh sape de bwk laptop mmg kagum kuase 18 la... haih.. den pun 2nd year baru de laptop. sbb fes year pki pc huahuahua

owh.. back to the story. kat pasum tuh kterg rumate 4 org. me, nurul, nuri and kimah.. nuri tuh nme dia sbnanye wani tpi suke pgl dia nuri sbb nme pakwe dia hihi... xpasal2 lekat. amik ko ~ pdhal now dia dah de pakwe lain dah nme kenari plak ~ ahahahahah just kidding. nme ape tah xhengat ~ sesuki nk kasi nme burung kat pakwe dia haish. ni la nuri hehe

and best giler rumate ngan depa neh.. even de la gak kesah suam2 suku but i'm really proud that until today we remain good friends.. yg pnah lost dh cntc balik. and hari ni yg pegi menziarahi arwah ayah nurul pun sume geng2 kterg kat pasum. itu satu bukti - we are good friends.. or best friends forever maybe hehehe

normally kterg akan hangout sesme time sem baru buka.. sbb time tu nurul cuti (fyi dia amik medic kat indonesia.. twinning program but now dah balik mesia. smbg kat penang plak). and me and her mmg byk kali la gak kterg keluar berdua. sbb org lain seems busy (plik jgk den nih xbz kaa?) or maybe i'm the type yg tak kesah nak keluar2 padahal keje byk bertimbun ehehehe. and kterg klu hangout berdua mesti g makan, borak2 xingt dunia.. pastu tgk wayang.

there's one time.. kterg tgk wyg marathon.. i think it was film CINTA ngan CASINO ROYALE kot. the funny thing is.. i've watched cinta and she also have watch the casino royale. but then we all sanggup tgk crite yg sme 2x just becoz nak teman each others. she's dying to watch cinta and me plak mmg nk sgt tgk cte james bond tuh. so kterg tgk je dua2 cte... huahuahua i think that is one of the sweetest memory that i would never ever forget.

and i'm very surprised that... she really know me! better than anybody else in this world!! (kategori kawan la) that is so touching pastu mcm plik pun ade gak hehe. tpi mmg terharu la becoz tah la.. i never thought that someone would understand me just like she did (giler gay). and i do told her all my secrets that i wouldn't dare to tell any of my frens. super cool huh... yeah she means a lot to me.

so when i heard about her father, mmg rase sedih sgt la. tpi mcm lagi rapat ngan mak dia (sebok jek nk close2 ngan family org ahahahah) ala.. nme pun rumate kan, mak dia mmg kenal kterg. slalu je g mkn kat umah dia.. lepak.. beraya.. hehe syok2. and den dtg sini pun mak dia tau.. slalu gak klu chatting2 ke, mesti mak dia tnye kaba ~ (femes ke i neh.. ngehehehe)

bout her father lak.. mmg tau macam ayah dia xberapa sihat. then dah 3 kali masuk hospital xslap. but this time ni.. masuk sbb mslah jantung. and bak kate kimah mmg kritikal la. owh kimah ni merupakan seorang budak medic kat um and wat posting kat ppum.. same hospital la ngan ayah nurul. so mcm kimah ni my informer la ~ ngee tpi sehri je la. sbb dia cte pun smlm.. then hari ni dpt tau dah meninggal. aishhh smlm call2 si nurul ni xberjaye la plak. sob sob ~

anyway to nurul.. if you read this post. i know how it feel, i mean losing somebody that you really love. but i do believe in you.. you can handle this ~

*feelings of loss are universal.. we’re all human. but we each deal with death in our own individual ways. it simply takes time.