aiiii... selfish nye manusia

selfish - define this word.


hurm manusia yg hanye pk pasal diri dia jek. tanpa memikirkan org lain di sekeliling ~



kat floor neh rasenye ade sorg mamat selfish yg mmg patut kne humban jejauh.. xyah duk kat kolej neh!!! aiii hape2 tah

semenjak dua ni perasan jugak.. pintu bilik air kterg slalu tertutop. *kterg kat hostel ni bilik single and kne kongsi bilik air + dapur*. tah manusia mne tah yg suke tutop. pastu rajin plak TUTOP LAMPU! giler ke ape. ingt duk kat umah ke? xpham betul.. sebok plak dia tolong nk jimat tuk pihak kolej neh...

so den pun mmg xleh blah la ngan org cmni.. dah la kunci dapur and bilik air tuh mmg xsemua org ader. tiap kali nk g bilik air terpakse plak pegi jauh2 belah wing lain. hih tampa kang ~ mmg menyusahkan betul. floor lain xdek plak tutop2 pintu tuh. ni mesti budak baru masuk sbb before this kterg kat floor 4 ni aman damai jerk..

so bile dah bengang memuncak tadi.. rajin plak pegi tulis notes tmpl kat depan pintu bilik air tuh. i wrote..

DO NOT close this DOOR
p/s: not everyone has the KEY

pastu tadi nk g mndi.. tetbe dia balas plak! tampal satu ketas baru atas ketas tadi. siot nye org ~ tak ingt ape ayat dia. nnt la pegi amik gmba.. tapi mmg selfish giler. tah hape mslh tah.. tau plak dia terase. sebok2 plak nk tutop pintu tuh..

ni yg tetbe trase nk pndh masuk rumah neh ~ aiii tpi pk2 balik mmg better lagi duk kolej. hurm.. terpakse la bertahan ngan org2 prangai giler cmni. sob sob

me.. my flight.. and mak mandir

baru balik dari pasar chrismas ~ lol lawak bunyi nye

dalam jerman nme dia 'weinachtmarkt' - chrismas market.. ok la tuh.


damn tired sbnanye.. dh la mg ni busy melayan kunjungan lecturer dari UKM. owh beliau sgt bertuah.. mendpat layanan extra special dari kterg ngeee.. ade ke dia kate nnt kterg balik mesia, dia plak nk jdi tourist guide kterg ~ agagagaga lawak betul.

bwk dia jalan2 kat Essen ni.. then pegi pulak Dusseldorf. aiii mesti xtau kan tmpt2 neh? wat2 tau je r. xpun google maps ke.. then mlm last dia kat sini smpt plak masak tuk dia. saje je nk tunjuk skil - nnt bole la dia heboh satu UKM tuh pasal kterg ehehehe (gile xbrape nk ikhlas) huahuahua.

xdek la.. mmg saje je nk ajak mkn. mesti dia susah nk cri mkn kat sini... dh r kurus keding jek. ade ke berat dia 49 kg!! bole bygkan ke lelaki berat cmni.. adeiii mcm nk tolong suh amik berat neh sket.. huhu. erm dia dtg sorg jek.. 27 taun.. single ahaha. tolong pomote ~

pape pun kterg hanye menunaikan hajat dia.. tuk jenjalan. sian gak, dh r sensorg jek. then keje dia kat sini pun kejap je dah settle.. bapak la boring nye duk hotel tuh. tapi mmg solute la ngan kterg (gile puji dri sndri) ~ even though bebanan thesis mmg mencengkam jiwa.. still spent some time with him. ahahaha good attitude la girls!

tibe2 terpk.. kterg bole wat bisnes tourist guide la. jln2 sekitar neh ~ hehe sila la dtg jerman. bole kterg entertain dgn bayaran yg berpatutan. pomote lagi ~ tpi before2 this.. org yg kterg bwk g jenjalan sume blanje kterg makan. best2.. i think that's enough la. but somehow idea nk buka tourist guide neh bole diusulkan tuk taun 2009! (^^)v

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talking about my flight.. GOOD NEWS. got my ticket already.. alhamdulillah. nmpknye jodoh den still dgn EMIRATES. ritu mcm plan nk fly naik egypt then transit few days kat sne kan.. hurm cancel la plak. postpone taun depan la pegi egypt tuh. kalau de rezeki.. smpi juga ke sne nnt. saba ye niah ~ =p

ritu.. tetbe nk cek website emirates. then suddenly tiket dia murah plak.. giler la. return 623.98 Euro! murah sgt le tuh labu.. so ape lagi. cepat2 la pegi beli itu tiket... tapi ade la cte mak mandir nye. later i'll tell u. ni kte cte pasal flight dlu.

ni la my flight schedule.. agagagaga


so going back to Malaysia 11 jan - 21 feb 2009 ~ (^_^) - made up my mind already. going back to germany. only to prove i've made the right decision... insya allah. GOD please help me!!

then the best part is.. since i'm a SKYWARDS member - meaning frequent flyer with Emirates (ni dah 4th time) so bole plak pilih seat!! yeay.. sronok2.. so ape lagi mesti la pilih seat yg kat tepi tingkap + bukan dekat wing ~ ahahaaha tgk gmba kat bwh neh.. ni cnth la.. kedudukan lam flight. my seat line 27.. masyuk2.


pastu tadi xdek keje.. usha2 website emirates. bole plak manage my booking.. hurm plus bole la nk upgrade seat dri economy ke business... agaaggaga syco jerk. with my skyward point ade 22000, mcm cukop la point tuh nk upgrade. this one available for me.. so tetbe mcm terase la nk try duk business class. ahahaha giler berangan jadi kaya kejap.


tapi.. pk2 balik.. mcm xbole la plak. coz my original plan is to redeem rantai 4 my sister nye wedding gift. Swarovski tuh.. egegegege mmg sesuai wat adiah tuk dia (even tak tahu la dia suke pki rantai ke tak). tuk redeem rantai ni jerk abes 22000 point den tuh. cet ~ so cmno tuh? of coz la rantai ni lagi penting dri business class tuh (i mmg adik yg plg best dlm dunia =p) so maybe i'll try next time la to upgrade class tuh.

best tak rantai ni.. ehehehe

nmpk free je wedding gift ni kan? tapi.. sbnanye kne byr gak tuk dia shipping ke sni.. plus tax bagai. hih lempang kang ~ abes gak duit den. but i really hope she like it. memula mcm nk kasi pakej honeymoon g memne (giler hebat).. tpi memandangkan den ni tahap student laie. xdapek la nk nolong.. (demm! pesal asek ckp loghat negeri lain neh.. i'm kelantanese ok - uh uh)

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kesah mak mandir plak ~

rabu - 10.30 am

pegi emirates nye kaunter kat airport tuk tnye pasal tiket. then mmg wujud la hrge tiket murah tuh. just to reconfirm.. mne tau kne beli online je ke - mati den! trus la book skali time tuh.. my date was 11jan - 22feb. then flight on 22 feb tuh plak 12.30 mlm.

call family to transfer duit.. took 1 day so nnt dtg bayar hari jumaat la.

jumaat - 1.40pm

pegi kat kaunter.. then nk byr gune kad bank (pagi tdi dah call customer service.. dia kate bole aje dong) so.. malas la nk g wat kua duit bebyk dri bank. bhye seh! ngan sedikit bangge.. swept la itu kad. sekali.. GAGAL. siot giler!! aiii tensen den..

yg jge kaunter tuh nme dia Mary. mmg dri ari rabu tuh deal ngan dia.. so dgn suke ati nye dia kte, xpe dtg la esok byr. tpi mesti byr before ahad.. klu tak rege tuh suda lain. aiii dlm hati panas jek. dia ingt tmpt neh dekat ker.. nk dtg selalu???! klu dri hostel tuh kne tuka train 3 kali tau. menggelegak betul jiwa.. pfanas2.

so dgn tergesa2.. pegi la cari itu bank. sbb amount dia terlampau besau.. > 300 euro. kne pegi kua kan kat kaunter. aiii mmg nk kne lempang btul la. hape2 aje sistem kad bank dia neh.. owh patut la tdi nk byr xleh... sengaLLLLL. mmg menyusahkan betul la ade limit2 neh. then tau tak dri airport nk pgi bank tuh .. sgt la memenatkan ~ dah la xtau kat ner!! giler

tak pasal2 pegi jmpe pak cik kaunter info.. dia kte bank tu kat city center. so klu naik bas 30 minit.. naik train 12 minit jek. pegila naik train ~ pak cik tuh kate la. aii sila bg tips plak. layann.. pegi la menurut perintah naik train.

jumaat - 2.23pm

waktu ini la train tuh smpi.. pegi la bandar Dusseldorf. pegi lagi!! pdhal smlm bru jek bwk lecturer UKM tuh dtg sni. senget betul la ~ then terpisat2 la pegi cari bank. jumpe!! tapi tuh tmpt withdraw duit shje. ceh.. buang karan betul r. yg cute tuh.. kat situ ade telefon tuk call customer service.

so ngan agak2 segan nye.. (mmg malu giler) tepon la bank, nk tnye kat ner dia nye bank yg ade kaunter! huahua lagi satu mslh.. org tuh reti ckp jerman jerk. mmg cri nahas betul la.. and then penat je memerah otak tuk tnye kat ner tmpt kaunter bank tuh. 'fialle' - thats the word ~ demm! mmg akan ku ingt smpi mati. pastu dia siap bg nasihat lagi.. better pegi cepat sbb bank nk tutop kul 4 and u only have one hour left. (tgk jam.. cet dah kol 3!)

dgn dibantu oleh mamat ensem memberi direction.. akhirnye smpi jgk kat bank tuh. mak aii besa gabak la. series!!! mewah giler bank tuh.. at the end berjaya la wat kua duit. pheeew.. right now going back to airport. kne tgu train lagi.. sigh ~ penat gile. tell u - ke sne ke sni.. mmg mak mandir btul la!!!

jumaat - 4.00pm

byr duit tiket.. tapi bukan dgn Mary. tah pegi mne tah dia tuh ~ ahaha ampeh jek. deal ngan org lain, last2 byr ngan org lain plak.. naseb ler. then dia siap dah plihkan seat dlm flight sume.. bling2. rase lega giler ~

skali... tau tak? selepas ticket tuh di issued.. bru pasan tarikh tuh dah jadi 21 feb la plak! mmg &%$*!^%$ betul la!! how come plak tarikh salah neh.. bongek2. i know it just one day.. tapi implikasi besa la. 21 tuh hari jumaat plak.. elok2 org nk balik hari sabtu. then mase dia ialah kol 2.30 pagi. mmg menyirap darah! sian le my family nk kne anto time2 cenggituh. gilos.. elok2 time booking ritu kol 12.30mlm. now otak pun dah pening2.. penat - xleh nk pk.

and mende plg bodoh is that the transit hour is 9hours! gilo ke apo?? patut ritu 4,5 jam je. nk wat ape kat dubai tuh lelame? damn it la.. mmg time tu dah sgt emo. pastu bile pegi balik kat kaunter - jmpe si Mary sengal tuh, dia bole plak xnk ngaku silap dia. aiii den bab2 nk gaduh ni mmg xbole blah r.. dia bole plak blame kat kite. ok the story is like this..

when fes time book tiket tuh (hari rabu), mmg dia da bg itenary tunjuk sume2 tarikh. then bile nk pegi byr tdi tnye la bole plih seat ke? dia kate klu skyward member bole ~ so dgn mate bersinar2, den kate la den ni skyward member. skali dia ckp kne rebooking balik. ok fine! book je la balik.. so i gave her itenary ritu. ingt kan dia book sebijik la mcm dlm ketas tuh.. skali pepndi plak dia alter!

aii mmg geram nk jmpe manager dia.. dah r dia kte klu nk tuka tarikh kne cas 100 euro. hell no way man! then gaye dia nk defend dri dia tuh mmg sgt xleh blah r. siap kate kte plak yg slah bg tarikh. dah tu org suh ikut itenary asal.. pe ke he nye ngko pegi tukau2! mmg &%$%*@! btul la haih.. saba2. my weakness is that bile dah terlampau geram, xleh nk gaduh2-tgi suare.. tpi jadi nk nangis plak!! demm ~ weaknesss plg xleh blah.

so time dia tgh sebok2 nk defend diri dia tuh.. i just blah!! mmg trase sgt cool la.. amik ko! ingt bagus sgt ler tuh. the customer is always right ok! mmg budaye org jerman nih kasar r. ingt dorg je betul. ritu time nk booking ngan travel agent tuh cmni gak.. kite plak yg salah. bodoh nye pemikiran! last2 travel agent tuh den pangkah (smpi bile2 xmo beli ngan dia).. ni kaunter emirates pun den nk pangkah gak.. pas ni terpakse apply kad kedit sbb nk beli online plak. ahahaha

at the end just stick with the flight plan la.. xkesah la transit 9 jam ke. dh r xdpt hotel ke hape.. tuk business class je dpt. ampeh nye emirates ~

so pengajaran kat sni.. sila cek tiket anda bebetul. am i careless ke hape? tah la.. sbb betul2 ingt dia book the same date with the same time! well bese la.. manusia wat silap kan. tpi silap dia tuh mmg xbole di maafkan. mntk2 la Mary tuh xtdo lena memikirkan kekejaman dia terhadap den! huahuahua

and somehow it makes me think.. mcm2 dugaan plak nk balik nih. ade sesuatu ke yg Allah nk tunjuk? tah la.. hopefully everything will be fine. and bole selamat pergi and selamat pulang ~ gegegege

coz i'm leaving.. on a jet plane~

hurm..

sedih la


pagi tdi pergi anta kawan kterg Pei Tze kat train station. kul 6.30 pagi kene bertolak dri kolej. sbb nk catch up train 6.50 dri tmpt kterg tuk pegi ke main train station.

so as usual la.. me mesti xtdo punye. bukan la sbb asyik terpk pasal pei tze tuh nak balik mesia for good ~ tpi nnt kang konfem xteranta dia. nak tdo awal pon cam xngantuk.. so terpakse stay up.. cet

pei tze ni kire org fes la antre kterg yg balik.. giler dia dah abes sume. sigh ~ thinking how great she've done in here.. nk nangis plak. and somehow i felt a lil bit regret.. coz mcm blaja main2 jerk. demm!!


but u know.. in life - sometimes u have to sacrifice something in order to get what u want. i didn't blame her to be soo nerdy --> slumber ckp dia nerd huahuahua. no la.. she just too focus on her study that's y dia nye result gempak.. thesis cepat siap.. good for her. me? i cannot live with that kind of lifestyle ~ no way!

so i deserved this.. i mean my life right know --> struggling with my thesis.. papers to repeat (part plg sengaL). tah la.. sometimes i really hate myself ~ dowh (+_+). xbaik benci dri sendri agagaga.

tapi tu la kenape la i selalu pk mudah. and mcm terlampau positif in every single things huhu so sometimes mcm.... argh dunno how to tell u. leave it la... i just know my self

ok back to our story.. train pei tze tu kul 7.15. rase sebak sgt time nk tgu tuh.. and time dia peluk2 kterg tuh, dia mcm nk nangis.. huhu klu dia nangis, sure i'll join her. den ni dah r xleh tgk org nangis.. xpasal2 nangis gak --> mmg jenis xbole ajak tgk cte hindustan.

pei tze is leaving! gosh.. maybe dah rapat sgt kot. so deeply inside my heart.. mmg sedih la. waaaaaaaaaaa nanges2! (hape2 la.. org tuh dh r nk balik mesia jek.. mcm nnt xjmpe jerk! aiish)

well byk sgt kenangan bersame ~ itu baru pei tze yg balik. ni kalau marni, muny or razmi yg balik tah cne tah. huhuhu kyah xmasok lam list la.. sbb dia smbg wat master. konpem dia balik lagi lmbt dri den ~ ekekekeke

huff.. ok calm down.. jgn terlampau emotional sgt.

at the end sume pun akan lead our own life. tak kan nk bersame smpi mati kan. so just keep the memory alive.. eh btul ke ayat ni.. antam la labu ~

kenangan terindah.. bawa la smpi ke akhir hayat. live with it..

me and pei tze @ LONDON

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alkesahnye ~

one day chatting with my dear friend..


me: lelaki susah la nk cri yg betul2 commited
me: selalu girl je yg lelebih
me: haih tu susah..

her: tula
her: but then.. u know what
her: after i read many books on relationship
her: actually, bukannye dorang tak committed
her: kite yang terlampau clingy on to them
her: seriously
her: if i had known about this.. i think things would have been different in my past relationships
her: and same goes to my marriage jugak

me: yeke...

her: betul najwa
her: believe me
her: they want space

me: kite terlampau clingy... hurm...
me: new tips

her: and... if u were to compare antara guys normal.. and guys yang too comitted
her: i am sure u'd prefer the normal ones
her: sbb they have a life

me: yela.. too commited tuh mcm konkong plak

her: betul
her: lama2 mcm rimas kan
her: kite terfikir la
her: mcm my ex dulu kan
her: he was the type yang i ingat tak comitted
her: but then now, when i look back
her: actually bukan tak comitted
her: he had his own life
her: and he wanted me to have mine

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so.. which one do you prefer??

it changed my mind actually.. i mean the way i thought about 'committed' guy.. huhu pangkah2.. sila la vote for normal guy ok?

my last chance

aiiiii... it keeps on bothering me ~


all i want right now is me focusing on my thesis!!!



but.. somehow
i'm waiting for something.. a good news maybe.. at least one final shot.. or else.. everything is finished! (+_+)



really hard to make decision.. what makes me want to hold on really tight??? cRazy ~


p/s: sure u don't understand what i'm mumbling about ~


the story behind the post...

1. going back to malaysia on 10 jan until 22 feb (my original planning). do practical from april until july - leaving germany forever by august
   
2. planning altered by my mom and my sis... i have to go back for good on 10 jan ~ sigh
3. problem encountered : my study still not finished yet ~ couldn't make it before 10 jan. however it can be settled in malaysia. since everything could be done in malaysian.. exams, certificates etc. it has been a vital reason for my family asking me going back to malaysia - FOREVER. dowh!!
4. situation : haven't got my practical yet.. if i have one then definitely going to stay here until august. and my further planning is... working in germany for at least 1 year. just to gain experience.
   
5. my last chance : within this 10 days.. if i haven't got any reply from companies. i'm finished!

lol... please pray for me. i should be panic right know actually.. but still acting cool ahaha. y? never stop HOPING, never stop BELIEVING ~ never ever! bacause ALLAH KNOWS BEST

really hate this number --> 10!!! why am i giving myself 10 more days? because i want to book the flight one month before the date.. meaning on 10 dec i'm going to buy the ticket and have to made up my mind by that time ~

tick tock.. tick tock.. time is ticking