al-fatihah buat emak NURUL...

hari ni bgn2 pagi saje nmpk msg ym from nad...


"naju..pagi tadi mak nurul kelantan meninggal..kanser payudara"



innalillah. time tu terkejut.. tergamam.. sebak.. sume ader. nurul ni satu matrik time kat PASUM now pursuing her study in UM amik master plak. dlu kterg lain kos, dia amik fizikal and me amik hayat. tpi slalu la lepak ngan dia sbb my rumate tu sorg dak fizikal gak. and dah bole kire cam satu geng r jugak kterg nih.


geng PASUM (nurul kl, nuri, nad, bibi, nurul kelantan, che mie, ikin, yaya, kimah).. erk lam geng kterg de 2 org nurul so sorg tu nurul kl sbb duk kl, lagi sorg tu duk kelantan. tu r jdi nurul kelantan huhu


wan NURUL nazneem.. i'm very sorry to hear about ur beloved mother.



then time cek2 kat fs, nuri plak bagi komen. pasal mak nurul jugak, but then dia ckp her mother died bcoz of lung cancer. dah, den pun confuse.. sorg kte breast cancer, sorg lung plak. haru biru btul. to make sure chat r ngan sorg budak ni, nurul's good fren kat UM.


then she confirmed that nurul's mother died coz of something to do with the lung. lung cancer ke lung spots cmtu r. huh lagi den confuse, never heard of that thing. so dgn bijaknye pegi r search2 kat tenet ape kah mendenye nih.



*according to the internet.. lung spots ni ialah ade spot2 kat lung la. but then tak confirm as a cancer. spot ni mayb from nodules/ade lagi satu bende xingt nme, yg mcm terover nmpk time CT scan wut so ever (haih malu ckp pasal mende medic ni sbb den bukan budak medic. bce artikel tu pong xbrape pham sgt sbnanye sob sob).
but then these spots can change time to time. so kne wat scan every 6 month to see the difference r. klu spots tu xbrubah then bru la confirm cancer hoho ade btulkah pemahaman den ni?



and seriesly i never know her mother ade lung spots nih (kcik ati). tpi kawan dia ckp act mende ni baru saje dpt tau. bulan 6 hari itu sob sob no wonder i tak tau. kan saye bz sebulan dua tiga nih, mesti nurul xsmpt nk cte huhu arghhh felt so loser!!


tetbe je terdetik.. mende ni detect bulan 6 and then after 3 months... was it too late? wallahualam. tringt arwah ayahanda detect leukimia Sep 99 then he died June 01. sekejap ke lame ke, ini semua kerja tuhan. what we can do is berdoa dan berdoa dan be strong.



so act y am i being so sebak mengingtkan pasal arwah mak nurul ni (today 2x rase sebak).. huhu sbb i've met her once. time first year ke 2nd year cmtu la. time tu balik kelantan melawat tok bah and mek (my grandparent), sensorg lak tuh. then pegi r rumah cik nurul ni sbb kebetulan time tu cuti sem.. and her mum is very nice and a very kind person. i bet she still remember me! huhu (omg, now sebak wat kali ke-3).

pastu smpt tido kat umah nurul 1 malam. then plg terharu arwah wat satu desert ni sgt sedap! i think i can still remember her word..



" naseb baik najwa bawak kek ni, nnt bole la auntie wat desert....auntie bru je terpk nk buat desert tpi xdek kek pulak"


lebih kurang cmni la ayat arwah. time tu bawak kek gulung sebagai buah tgn. and desert tu rasenye yg base de kek gulung then taruk cocktail atas dia.. i still remember the taste. love it so much.. and time tu rase happy sgt sbb bwk sumthing yg dia mmg nk gune (erk bole pahm x perasaan nih).

and during the stay, mak nurul ni mmg sgt caring - smpi terasa disayangi. i could tell you her mother is a lovable person + a very good cooker. and we also have a good chat together.. huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu sedih la ~ sob sob sob sob (i think i'm gonna cry rite now.. mengingatkan mende2 ni sume)



to nurul ~> i hope a happy go lucky girl like you will be tough and strong going through this hardship. u know we will always be there for you.. whenever u need us.

semoga arwah dicucuri rahmat dan bersemadi tenang di SANA.... AL-FATIHAH.