letting go ~

almost 12 am..

bila mood tgh rajin, laju je jari jemari ini menaip.


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1. ecah ~ i know you always read my blog. then i just want to say how much i miss our good time together in germany. it has been a great time dude! i just look at our picture.. on the day you fly back to malaysia huhu

2. last night i chat with my friend.. and we talked about the 'good old days' of our student life in ukm. suddenly all those memories flashed back in my head.


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sometimes when you remember all those days back... you want to hold on tight. because it make you feel good.
but sometimes you have to let go something.. something that u hold really tight. but it doesn't mean it will go forever.. because its still there.. deep inside your heart..

have to tell yourself that letting go is easier than holding on. oh yeah, it hurts.. especially if you are already accustomed to it. but you just have to let go... because if you hold on, you'll only be hurting yourself more. so although it might hurt and sting like hell... its best to let go..


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hold tight ~ let go

!!!!!!!!!
Sometimes, you have to let life be

Sometimes, you need to hit rock bottom before you can improve your life and begin to achieve your dreams

i just love this word - SOMETIMES

sifat malas ~

sekarang di landa perasaan malas yg tidak boleh dibendung lagi (mcm mslah negara lak)


malas nk wat tesis padahal isnin depan kene jmpe lecturer.. adeii

malas nk update resume konon2 nye nk wat pract taun depan.. huhu

malas nk masak smpi duk lam blik xtau nk makan ape ~.. i think i'm going to lose the weight faster than a healthy diet (^^)v. huahuahua imagine la dalam sehari tu xmakan smpi r malam.. baik pose ~ haih.

malas nk mandi ~ hehe just kidding. yg ni xdek la malas sbb panas plak duk dlm blik nie. heater dia panas giler huhu


tpi despite sifat malas ni ade gak sifat rajin


rajin mengupdate blog ni ~ sbb tgk sumerang duk ade post baru. so mcm xbest la plak xtulis pape..

rajin membuat planning nk g swiss time winter nnt.. huhu wat tesis malas, wat mende2 'ber hu ha' ni laju jerk. besela manusia ~ lebih ke arah seronokan dunia (+_+)

rajin mengemas bilik.. ahahaha semangat baru lepas balik dri ikea ritu. beli few things and in order to place those things at the right place kene la kemas balik satu bilik ni.. poyo jek ngeee anyway kemas blik ni one way to release tense.. tah apela yg duk tensen sgt kan? huhuhu

ok nak smbg kemas bilik lagi ~

my day today

agak bz...


searching for a new part time job and doing my thesis and surfing the net and sleeping until noon and bla bla bla...


hari ni pergi birthday party dekat rumah kak erin and yob.. (slumber pgl yob.. hehe abg fauzi la). their daughter baru masuk satu tahun.. so kterg pegila bersuka ria kat umah dia hehe... best gilerrr! really enjoy ourself there.. tpi xtau pesal skang ni trase penat sgt badan.. nk menulis pun xbrape larat ~ haih plik2.. sbb slalu kua pn xdek r xlarat cm rini huhu giler mcm org tua! ahahaha


tdi mkn nasi tomato + daging masak kurma + ayam masak merah + mee goreng + bubur pulut itam + 2 jenis kek + buah limau + air coke + air buah (giler detail... hehe). syok2.. actually majlis start 12 onwards tpi kami sebagai gadis2 yg baik hati pegila sejam awal tuk tolong mne patut..


yela sian jugak kat kak erin ngan yob je wat keje.. dah la de schamimi (anak mereka) mesti mcm sedikit susah nk wat keje. dah r rmi giler tetamunye.. smpi 20+ kot ~ so mcm byk la nk kne masak. haha tpi kebenarannya kami hanye tolong potong sayur2 and susun2 food jek. dorg dh siap masak daaa... ngeeee


dri kul 11 smpi kul 6 lebih... kterg la org fes dtg and org plg last balik hehehehe xkesah langsung sbb de baby schamimi - eh perasan tak ejaan nme dia ala2 schumacher cmtuh.. ha tu la sbb schamimi ni lahir kat jerman ~ cool giler! loooove it... tak pasal2 nnt nk bg nme anak start ngan nme 'sch' gak r heeee. tu pon klu lahir kat jerman la.. lalalalalaalaa


and tdi part plg best time buka2 adiah.. happening sgt. hehe byk giler adiah schamimi. siap bole wat zoo lagi.. byk sgt dpt toy bentuk2 binatang huahuahua kterg pon bgi toy bentuk penguin dgn baju winter kaler pink ~ girlish giler haha itu la.. klu nk adiah bebyk jgn lupe wat besday party. konfem org dtg bwk adiah.. tpi dh besa2 nih klu nk clebrate mcm plik la plak.. i mean mcm XSESUAI ~


then balik tdi smpt jgk singgah city jap.. shopping2 smbil tngkap gmba ~ buang tebiat. dah r sejuk bangat hih! well nk dekat2 penghujung ni.. trase nk slalu spend time together.. nnt balik mesia sume duduk jauh2. huhu gonna miss u all la.. esp budak 3 ketul marni, muny and kyah. (tetbe emo kejap ~ ok rilek2 najwa.. gelabah laaa)


owh and then mende plg sengal.. guess what?? bole tak - lupe nk turn off suis IRON.. naseb xmeletop blik nih.. haih giler cuak. dh r time balik tu pun xprasan lagi.. tetbe de bunyi.. mmg iron ni de satu jenis bunyi.. bile tgk2.. ya allah xoff suis! giler2... naseb iron kat sni dia mmg agak sengal unta sket.. xbrape panas sgt huhu patut sepanjang hari ni mcm hati tak tenang jek.. mcm ade sesuatu. haih ~ please be more careful next time wahai cik najwa.. tu r tdi gelabah nk bersiap cecpt. aiiiyayayay thanked ALLAH!


owh yea now dh nk winter.. kol 4.50 dah maghrib. so bole imagine sendri la kan? kul 5 tuh dah gelap laaaaa... and mlm semkin panjang huhu xtau nk suke ke tak.. haih ~ tpi the best thing is bole pki baju2 winter.. jacket - boot - shawl - glove.. syok2.. macam sarat plak ngan aksesori ekekekekeke. klu summer tuh mcm comot jek pki baju selapis ngan sua haih.. xbest2. (kesimpulan : me kat mesia mmg comot.. ~ kahkahkahkah)


tah la kat sni sng nk 'bergaya' sbb sarung jacket jek kat lua.. so kat dlm org mmg tak tahu le pki hape kan.. kat mesia klu nk pki jacket tuh mau kne gelak guling2. haiiiiish.. jaket jeans tuh xmasuk la dlm senarai k.. xsuke jaket jeans!! huahuahua jaket kulit lak klu nek moto besa sesuai le de satu.. tpi kot2 nek skuter tuh, pki jacket kulit agak2 cm kne gelak jugak jek.. maybe tak smpi berguling2 la.. gelak2 jahat bese je kot. tah le

eh sesape yg bwk skuter dan de jaket kulit jgn terase plak k.. huhu nnt korg tuka la bwk moto besa xpun tuka pki jaket jeans ngeh2... (gile merepek dah den neh ~)


owh yea hari sgt happy giler sbb ARSENAL menang!!! 2-1 lawan man xunited ahahaha go go bebeh! going to support u until dah jdi nenek ~ (senget jerk) yela lately arsenal mcm agak down sket.. panas je telinga dgr org kutuk.. xpun terbaka je mata membace tulisan2 yg xsedap dibace dlm paper/net/so on... i am a die hard fan. tpi xdek la smpi nanges klu arsenal kalah. cume agak emo sekejap smbil menyumpah2 sket heeee (opppps nyumpah bese2 jek.. cm bodoh-bengap cmtula)


erm.. hari kamis lepas dah call travel agent.. book tiket flight. probably date yg dah diset adalah 9 januari smpi 22 februari.. dah dpt invois cume belom byr lagi. nk transfer duit kne tgu family bank in dlu. huh mmg sengal pegi booking without de enough money dlm bank!! hih senget2.. tah r.. ritu de mse lapang.. boring2 tetbe nk call. haih ~ now kne tepon balik sbb nk hold payment. adei.. silly me!


tpi yg sronok giler tuh harge tiket sgt murah la.. sbb de sale. fly with EMIRATES (dah 3x naik gak) and return ticket from frankfurt - KUL hanya 552 euro saje dlm rm2600.. bese nye adalah 1000 euro cmtuh (~rm 5000). hehe best kan?? half price.. thank you ALLAH. tipsnye date tuh kne betul.. bia de sale hehe tapi right now still dlm dilema lagi la.. nk balik trus ke nk balik sni balik. yela mmg beli ticket return.. tpi klu nk burn ticket balik jerman tu pun xpe jek. coz mmg lagi worth beli ticket return dri beli ticket one way. ticket one way 700 euro.. kan ke siot je tuh. bek beli return.. hehe tips no 2 tue. please take note..


mslh dilema ni.. ma sayang kate banyak2 la berdoa semoga mendapat petunjuk dariNYA.. baik mummy! huhu now tgh cri petunjuk la nih.. if i got a superb part time job then i will not hesitate to stay here a lil bit longer coz i'll earn my own money. coz i'm done my study (only if i was able to finish my thesis).. so what for i want to come back here right? ya ALLAH berilah petunjuk kepada hambamu ini.. amin.


owh tringt marni tnye why am i hesitate to go back for good/why i want to stay here a lil bit longer. give her 10 reasons.. then i said 10 is too much. so she asked me for 4 reasons. (plik gak nape 4.. slalu 5 kan huahuahua)

ok my answers..

1. deep in my heart i don't want to go back yet ~ coz there's something that i'm not done yet. but i couldn't figure out what is it.. pelik huh? tpi perasaan ni still ade dalam hati nih.. aiyayaya
2. i want to have at least one year experience working in germany. as an engineer of coz! but that is the hardest thing to do... ingt sng ke nk cri keje sni? plg koman pun kne ade master tau huhu.. coz education system in here is different compare with malaysia. susah nk explain tpi klu apply keje dgn degree jek.. mmg susah laaaaaa
3. i want to travel around europe.. i mean all those femes places yg xpegi lagi ehehehe italy, spain, swiss, austria, scandinavian countries.. haihhhh
4. i have my maximum target.. 3 years in germany. and now bru go through half way.. and actually i was thinking going back for good (if xdpt keje sni) on ogos. time nk konvo hehe itula my real planning. nnt nk buat at least one more time practical from april until ogos.

see.. macam2 kan. tah la.. well kite hanya merancang, ALLAH yg menentukan. dan setiap ketentuan dari ALLAH itu ada hikmah disebaliknya. mungkin kite tak dpt apa yg kite nak tpi at the end we'll understand why it went that way.. (mcm ayat memujuk dri sndri). well i pray for the best for my self. if ditakdirkan mmg rezeki tuh ade di mesia then i'll go back to mesia. no worry! hehe positive thinking ok people!

till then.. daaa

layan tag kejap ~

(from aini fairus)

What were the 5 things on your to do list today?

• jmpe Prof Schmidt and Hannah Baltes (my fav lect coz she's sooooo beautiful ahaha) regarding my thesis
• jmpe Schibor - exam punya cite
• jmpe Dr. Lesny - exam punya cite
• jmpe Dr. Keck - exam punya cite
• jalan2 dekat city.. nk cri puzzle 3D Burj Al- Arab Dubai for iman tpi xjmpe lak. cest

What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?

• waffle + nusseti
• twix
• chips
• jogurt - kire snack ke?
• kek pisang

What are 5 jobs you’ve had?
i think all my previous job got to do with my family business... owh and i enjoy working as a waitress ahaha adelah sumwhere

5 people you wanna tag back?

• anyone
• everybody
• anybody
• everyone
• bloggers
  

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1. How old are you?
23

2. Are you single?
yeeeeeeeeap

3. In what age do you think you’ll get married?
earliest 26... latest 30 kot

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
refer to question 2

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
~ nk kawin ngan van Persie/fabregas bole tak hihi

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
both sounds great.. traditional wed is a tradition and a garden wedding maybe for closed family members/friends

7. Your ideal motive?
motif.. motif pembunuhan ke huhu
well it depends.. my mom very creative one. dont worry (^^)v

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
haih the bad thing about traveling round Europe is there's no place left for your honeymoon
but i think swiss is a very romantic place.. paris too.. and italy maybe
or should i try south africa/japan/korea/new zealand/bali/phuket???
but i love redang ~

9. How many guests do you think you’ll invite?
haih apo punye soklan la.. tampa kang. mne tau lagi la... keje pun blom
nk jmpt kawan keje lagi.. client lagi.. huahuahua (gile perasan)

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
buat ape membazir? amalan syaitan... buat gah2 akhirnya putus di tgh jalan baik xpyah ~ hish nauzubillah. nway i think simple but nice will be ok ~ if u have extra money then buat la grand2 pong.. duit u bukan duit i. haih hantam sajalah labu ~

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own?
ikut cara islam tu kan mudah... susah2 jek. haish mmg nk kne 'dumm'
tukang buat soklan sevey nih

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
waaaa... ni sonok.. nk 2/3 lapis sudah ~ berlapis2 kang mcm kek lapis plak huahua

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
argh.. this ques. killing me la (mcm tau2 je)
nway my mum xsuke wat kat umah.. dia mesti cri tmpt kat lua adeiiiii
have to find one sweet place later ~

14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
hurm.. i think i prefer at night

15. You’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
outdoor mcm lagi sonok hek?

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
tgk la bajet.. ahahah (poyo gile soklan ni.. dush2)

17. Name the song/tune you’d like to play at your wedding
ha.. good timing you ask. last night i was listening to ct nurhaliza songs and i was thinking to play all her irama malaysia songs at my wedding ngeh2

18. Are you a morning person or a night person?
bukan morning person! huhu tpi bole saje bgn awal.. saje je bgn lambat2

19. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
mane2 jela.. hih mcm2 soalan.. u jela jdi wedding planner i k? sume mende nk tau bluekkk

20. Describe your ideal husband.
i have my own criteria.. tapi biarlah rahsia ~ hehe

21. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
org melayu pki tgn sudah.. agak2 tgn allergic ke hape pki la spoon and so on keh?

22. Champagne or red wine?
sirap la.. xpun bandung (typical malay wedding) kang wat air coke kang ape plak org kate huhu

23. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
right after the wedding!!! klu bole nk amik cuti g round dunia ke huahua sbb nk round europe dah round dah.. klu round asia cm xbest plak bunyinye huhu

24. Money or household items?
dua2 xkesah ~

25. Who will pay for the bills?
erm me and family la kot...

28. Are you ready for married life?
looking forward... haha wondering how's the life

29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
hek ele.. gelabah la

30. Will you always be true to your husband?
aish.. ni dah ala2 tukang kawin lak soalan dia.. 'sebuklah ko ~'

31. How many kids would you like to have?
hurm i think rmi2 pun ok.. mcm kterg de 7 adik bradik. sronokkkk giler

32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
i'm going to buy one la.. before kawin.. tpi tu tuk my own huahuahua nnt
kawin duk umah yg beli sesme la.. tgk r cmne k. 'sebuklah ko ~'

33. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
xpenah pk plak.. mekasih la tolong tnye eh ~

34. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
malay one.. and i think mknn ni yg akan buat org ingt kat wedding kte
klu wedding grand giler tpi mknn loser.. xde nk ingt nye. and vise versa... org mesti akan puji food punyela.. huahuahua anyone agree?

35. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
soklan ni pong nk tnye ke.. rase skang record pki hard disk jek trus masuk laptop
kahkahkah tpi klu nk burn tuh taruk la dlm DVD ngek ~ kan memory besa
hape2 tah soklan nih

36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
erm.. my sister hehe can't wait to go home (again repeating this sentence)
hehehehehehe
and also my blogger's fren.. buat okay jgn xbuat sevey nih~ tagged2!!

wELcome eveNing

lately...

banyak post yg bertemakan feeling saje... well honestly my life is kind of boring right now. bangun-makan-tido... tido-bangun-makan. boring ha? recently xkeluar shopping brg dapo and malas gilerrrrrr nk masak. so just stay in my room.. makan waffle with nusskati. and drink milo or chocomilk.. (everyday) menggemokkan ~ haih

next monday ade termin (appointment) regarding my thesis.. haven't prepare anything yet. adeiii malas nye. apesal la dilanda kemalasan yg amat nih. duk blik, asek online saje. tgk youtube.. huhu dah la tbe2 byk plak series baru start. i'm currently following these series:

: frontpage : ku milikmu : renjis 2 : awan dania : mentua vs menantu :

kalau kat malaysia mesti xkn tgk series2 nih.. tpi now kat jerman ni xdek hiburan so have to la ~ naseb ade utube (^_^) huhu

owh want to share a story about last thursday.. we have an event - welcome evening. the event is addressed especially to new international students in engineering and give them the chance to meet senior students.

and mende yang xbole blah is that we have to cook malaysian dish! dia (organiser) bg bajet 80 euro (RM400) and we came out with the new idea -masak kuih ketayap, murtabak with curry and apam balik.

dah la organiser xtau brape rmi yg dtg so kiterg kne masak je la byk2.. my GOD! so since rabu malam lagi dah prepare. buat murtabak.. balut pki kulit popia sbb mmg kat sni sng lagi wat cmtu. xdek keje nk wat doh...

then testing buat apam balik.. ok la menjadi hehe mlm tuh dri kul 7 mlm smpi kul 12 kterg berjaya wat murtabak hmpir 60pc.. then kari pun dah siap masak. giler penat.. sok plak pagi2 lagi nk kne bgn wat ketayap ngan apam balik plak. then nk kne goreng murtabak tu lagi aiiii

malam tuh 3 org je yg wat ~ then esok pagi naseb tenaga kerja ramai sket -5 ketul.. so dri kul 9.30 pagi smpi 4ptg 'pum pang pum pang'.. berjaya la menyiapkan all the food. adei mmg separuh mati jgk la.. dh r dri malam.. tido pong xbrape cukop huhu

tpi xpe la.. demi untuk event nih.. and demi tuk bg org2 sni rase malaysian food. kterg tabahkan ati jugak ~ (gile poyo ayat) huahuahua and the best part is when EVERYONE loooove the food... sume kate sedap. ngeh2.. i think that's enough.. untuk membayar segala penat lelah kterg. (ayat poyo lagi) hehe

undeniable kterg nye kehebatan memasak dah terkenal seantero NRW ahahaha giler angkat bakul sendiri.. no la its just that we have the reputation... so far so good. alhamdulillah.. mmg bercite2 nk buka rest pun kat sni (giler berangan) tapi mne de modal.. mau nye puluh ribu mesia. haih

so kterg low profile je la... masak2 tuk kepuasan sendiri. and selalu jgk tolong masak for event2. yela duk sni tolong laaaa boring giler ok!!! selain dri melancong2 yg mmg tahap dewa sronoknye.. mende lain sume boring. so masak2 tuh untuk membunuh kebosanan laaa huhu

nnt next event yg kne pegi.. birthday schamimi - 8/11 and birthday nahfiz + warming house kak nadia next month kot. to kak erin, if u need help - yela mesti byk nk masak plus nk layan schamimi lagi hehe kterg bole je tolong.. tolong tgkkan schamimi!! huahua and macam nk bwk desert je pegi umah kak erin. coz bahan masak2 byk giler lagi lebih dri event ritu. hurmm nnt pk.

ok nnt upload gmba k.. now cm dh ngantuk plak ~ tido lagi huhu