wHat dRiveS mE cRazy???

hari ini tetbe terbgn awal. hoho (yes saya mmg terkenal ngan suke tido lmbt + bgn lmbt).. then suddenly tringin plak nak balik mesia cesss. ape kes??

KES 1 :: thinking about my family. lots of things happen and seriesly i don't like it when i'm not being there with them (rasenye sumerang pon cmni kan huhu). rindu ngan masakan ma.. rindu nak tido atas katil sndri.. rindu nak pegang remote ASTRO.. rindu nak tgk tv (sni tv sume lam bahase jerman, mmg den xberkenan).. rindu nk g beli teh ais and goreng pisang kat food court presint 8.. rindu nk g jln2 kat alamanda.. rindu nak tgk wayang.. rindu ngan my beloved frens.. rindu nak hang out with begetar.. rindu ngan mcD, piZza, and sume2 la tmpt mkn yg slalu g dulu.. rindu nak makan durian (sbb skang musim durian).. rindu ngan keigo (kuceng kesayangan kterg).. rindu nak gadoh2 ngan iman, is and boya (gile kaki gaduh).. basically i miss everything.. and seriesly i miss malaysia!!!

keigo yg sgt comel and manje

> what drives me crazy.. i still missed a few things about my famly even slalu giler chatting. why? bcoz u are not there so mmg konfem u'll never know every single things happen in your house.

KES 2 :: baru je lepas tgk fs nan.. nmpk plak gmba bebudak nih amik jubah konvo. (engineering UKM convocation date 12.8.08). dah r syco plak g rermi amik jubah tu. so dorg pong bergmba sakan la rermi aiy. honestly really sad when i think about it (ni terpk lam toilet la pgi tdi.. mmg suke berpk lam toilet ngeh2). can u imagine.. belajar same2 3 tahun.. penat susah senang bersame2 but then xbole plak convo sesma waaaaaaaa mmg tiap kali pk pun cam sedih. well that's the price i have to pay to come here. some people said it was nothing, just small matter. ok up to you la nak pk hape (emo2) but for me it was something big! nnt taun depan konvo kterg 11 org je la satu batch, the rest is our junior! sux man.... mne sonok nak convo haih ~. ok la nk ckp ape pun mmg xgune la coz bukan nye bole balik skang convo pong. tak abes blaja lagi hurmm

bestest friends @ UKM

> what drives me crazy.. when i look back on it (the convo day) and i wasn't there with my best friends.

KES 3 :: for not being there when someone you love or someone you really close.. need you. few days ago, chatting with my best fren (nama dirahsiakan) and she told me sumthing really serius. smbil nangis2 plak.. really wish could be there for her. tpi xdek la smpi poyo nak balik mesia semate2 sbb dia lak kan.. just wish that at least mende tu happen when i was in mesia. bole la dia cite face to face then klu nak menangis smpi basah baju ni pun xpe (meminjam ayat beliau.. "klau ko ade mest bsh bj ko ngan air mata aku"). then she made me promise 2 things.. that really touched me.

her :: "ko jnj eh,klau aku x kawen 1 hr nnt,n aku sll dtg umah ko nk bermanja ngan anak2 ko,bleh kan".

me :: "ok i promise..."

her :: "n promise..ape pun yg jd di mase dpn,ko kna lbh percaye aku berbnding org len tau..."

me :: "ok what's that suppose to mean?"

her :: "yela,mne tau 1 hr nnt aku jd gile n aku ckp sumthing yg btol,tp org len x cyaer... ko kna la percaye,ehh? sbb aku xtau ape yg akan jd di mase depan. n aku sgt takut.... "

me :: "(thinking.... aih pk dah jauh ni) ok i promise for that one too... my dear friend"

> what drives me crazy.. those 2 promises that i made to her... hopefully i can keep it. i'm sorry my friend for not being there at times when you needed me the most.